Author's Note: This is #2 in my Lost in Love series. I know I say this every time, but this is a new series and I love getting criticizm, good or bad, about my work. For anyone who wants it, my addy is Shadowcat@powerrangerslostgalaxy.zzn.com. Thanks! Hope you enjoy the fic!
It was only fair. He'd never been there for her, even though he knew she needed him. TJ was always there, while he was too scared of his own newfound heart to go to her right away. He had no one else to blame for this but himself.
Phantom fell to his knees. The pain that tore at his heart was too much to bear. He buried his face in his hands. The image of Cassie kissing TJ on the park bench still nagged at his mind. No matter what he did, the mental picture still taunted him.
Even now, he wanted nothing more than to be in her arms. He'd give up anything to have one more chance to correct his mistake.
It's not that I can't live without you
It's just that I don't even want to try
Every night I dream about you
Ever since the day we said goodbye
His head throbbed with an ache powerful enough to cause a groan of pain to escape from his throat. He felt sick. His body trembled, even in the hot, Californian summer night.
But that was not the worst of it. Hot tears stung painfully in his eyes. Phantom hugged himself tightly to get his bearings. I will not cry, he told himself. He'd never cried in his life, he wasn't about to start now.
Cassie's face once again found it's way into his mind. Thankfully, this time she wasn't with TJ. Now Phantom's thoughts were of what could have been.
If I wasn't such a fool
Right now I'd be holding you
Baby if I only knew
His stomach burned with whatever hurt had leaked from his broken heart as he told himself that he'd never have her now because it was too late. The stinging in his watery eyes grew sharper, and Phantom covered them with his hands to hold in the tears that threatened to fall.
The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
What can I do
To get to you
And find a way back to your heart
He thought he might actually die here like this without her. The thought caused his lips to quiver and his squeezed his eyes shut, cursing himself for allowing himself to become so vulnerable.
I don't know how it got so crazy
But I'll do anythig to set things right
'Cause your love is so amazing
Baby you're the best thing in my life
Phantom cried out as a wave of painful throbbing once again consumed him. The pounding in his head continued persistently. If he lived through this, he would surely go insane. I need her, he told himself. That went without saying. He had to get her to give him one more chance. He knew it was unfair to her, but he needed that one chance. Then he could make both of them happy for all eternity.
Let me prove my love is real
And made you feel the way I feel
I promise I would give the world
If you would only tell me girl
His eyes grew itchy and the stinging spread to the base of his skull. I will not cry! He tried to think of how happy he would be once he got Cassie to give him his chance. He knew he would get it, he promised himself as much. He'd either die holding Cassie in his arms or die trying to get her there.
The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
What can I do
To get to you
And find a way back to your heart
A new image of Cassie formed in his mind, something he had not expected to see. She was crying, and her pain was so great it hit him straight to his soul. Could it be that she was feeling the same hurt also?
Give me one more chance
to give my love to you
'Cause no one on this earth
loves you like I do, tell me
I knew it, he thought. Her pain in his soul ripped him apart like nothing had ever had before, but this proved that she still loved him. All the pain that could have killed him plus a million times more was worth it to him if he could feel her love once more.
The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
What can I do
To get to you
And find a way back to your heart
Soon he could tell her all his feelings for her. He could heal both their hearts and love her forever. He prayed to any god in the high heavens that was willing to listen that his precious Cassie would open her kind heart to him and accept his love. Then everything would be okay, as long as he had her to call his.
I turn back time
To make you mine
And find a way back to your heart
I beg and plead
Fall to my knees
To find a way back to your heart
Phantom squeezed his eyes shut once more and bit down hard on his lip as the searing increased. He tasted blood on his tongue, and he spit on the ground to keep the bitter taste out of his mouth.
The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
The image of Cassie in pain intensified and Phantom could not hold it in any longer.
What can I do
To get to you
And find a way back to your heart
Phantom hung his head dejectedly. His cheeks were now soaked with a burning trail that leaked from eyes that had never known tears at all in this lifetime. The last of the protective wall he had worked so hard to build came crashing down and he had never felt so vulnerable in his life. He trembled and cried out as, for the first time, the sobs wracked his aching body.
The sobs grew louder as she grew nearer. They sounded as if they were pouring out straight from the soul. Cassie broke into a run.
"Hello," Cassie said gently. He tried not to look up, knowing she was right in front of him.
She crouched down beside him. "Are you okay?" She looked into his eyes and gasped.
"It's you," she breathed.
Phantom's jaw dropped. How could she possibly have known that? He quickly recovered. In desperation, he activated his invisibility sheild.
"No! Please don't go," Cassie called.
He knew he should just stay and tell her now, but he couldn't . Not like this. Once again, Phantom's cowardice caused him to run away from her. He could still hear her calling to him as he ran.