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"Did you get to see him?" Kat asked Tommy.
Tommy shook his head. He took a seat at the new outdoor area of the Juice
Bar. Kat and Trini exchanged looks. Tommy looked depressed. Nothing new
in other words but it was starting to worry everyone. Tommy sighed heavily.
"The nurse said he was sleeping and not to wake him... He seems to
be sleeping all the time."
"Um... Tommy," Trini said hesitantly, "He's not well. I
was at the hospital all day today and I think he opened his eyes maybe
once or twice. Give him a little time...."
Tommy completely missed her point. "He actually woke up? Did he say
anything?"
Trini felt a headache coming on. "Tommy, he said hello and asked me
what day it was. He's sick.... I'm willing to bet he barely understands
what is going on."
Kat decided it was time to change the subject to a slightly less sensitive
topic. "How're Aisha and Adam doing?" The teens had to take turns
visiting their injured friends. Trini could get in, as could Jason... but
they were on vacation from the peace conference and didn't have to worry
about school. Visiting hours didn't work out with school hours and they
were reduced to pleading with nurses to see their friends. A compromise
had been reached, one friend per day after school, and that day was Tommy's.
Tommy's face brightened a little. The dark bruises on his face suddenly
didn't look so harsh. "Adam should be getting out tomorrow, but he
won't be in school until next week. His folks want him to take a break.
Aisha is probably getting released next week. They both might miss finals,
lucky them. It's really only Billy that...." His voice trailed off.
"Tommy, Billy will be fine." Trini said with a cheery note she
didn't really feel. "It's just going to take a while."
"Really," said Kat. "Adam's getting out of the hospital
after only three days. Aisha's going to be fine. Billy just needs more
time to recover. He needs you to be strong and supportive while he's sick."
"He's not sick." Tommy said angrily. "He's hurt. And its
my fault." He got up and stomped away. Both Kat and Trini sighed.
"I've never seen him like this." Kat said suddenly. "So...
I don't know... edgy."
Trini chuckled slightly. "Tommy can be pretty moody when he wants.
Once you get to know him better, you'll see that this is how Tommy copes
with things. Once he understands that Billy will be okay... he'll calm
down a little. This is his way of relieving stress."
"Yes but... is Billy going to okay?" Kat said the words that
they all had been avoiding. In a way, she felt it was her place to be the
realistic one. She barely knew Billy when it came down to it. And the guy
she had thought was Billy was dead. She could be objective... sort of at
least. Objective enough to know that after spending four months captive
in Lord Zedd's palace, Billy wasn't going to be okay. "You've gotten
to see him, Trini. How is he really?"
"Honestly, Kat he pretty much sleeps all day." Trini felt her
eyes welling up wit tears and paused. "He was awake this morning but
I only got a moment to see him. His dad forced the doctor to let me in.
He was having a hard time registering what people were saying. He asked
me why I wasn't in Geneva." Trini couldn't help it, she burst into
tears. "That... that thing sent me letters, Kat. We made plans to
get together. I feel so awful...." She let herself cry for a few moments,
and Kat gave her a reassuring hug. Ernie unobtrusely set a box of kleenex
on the table and Trini dried her eyes. "The doctors were saying that
he should be all right, in the physical sense. I just hope he can keep
himself together."
"Well... if he can deal with the last few months without being driven
insane already, I think he has a pretty good chance of being okay."
Kat crossed her fingers. So did Trini.
* * *
Billy rubbed a hand across his eyes and tried to concentrate on what the
doctor was saying. He felt so tired. And drugged. He was pretty sure he
hadn't taken any drugs but that was the feeling... sort of like he was
floating above his problems. He glanced over at the two IV lines. Who knew
what they were giving him. He was pretty sure that something other than
saline was dripping into his veins. The last few hours, or days, he wasn't
sure, had barely registered to him. That he was in a safe place and could
rest for the first time in months had been enough.
"And as soon as we get you up and around, we'll have an out patient
schedule set up for you." The doctor smiled. Billy cursed himself.
Something was being arranged and he had missed it. Did he say therapy?
Billy pondered. He thought he caught the most important part though.
"I can leave here soon?" He didn't like the hospital. All the
door banging and people rushing in and out of his room made him nervous.
If he had the slightest bit of energy left, he wouldn't be able to sleep.
It seemed like someone different was in his room everytime he opened his
eyes. It was scary.
The doctor frowned and glanced over at his father. He thought it was his
dad... the light was pretty low but he was pretty sure. So far, his father
had been in his room whenever he was awake. That eased his terror... his
dad reassuring him. "Well, Billy, not for a few days. Maybe in a week.
But you understand that..."
He closed his eyes. A week... he didn't want to stay that long. Slowly
he realized that the doctor was still droning on. He considered opening
his eyes again. He didn't feel like participating though. But, something
was bothering him. He opened his eyes again and really looked around the
room. "Dad?"
"Yes, Billy? What is it?" His father stepped over to the bed.
"Where's... where's Mom?" Billy's voice shook a little. It was
really unlike his mom to not be, well... there. "I haven't... seen
her... I think...." He knew that he was pretty confused, but he was
pretty sure about that. In his few waking moments the last day or two...
or three, he wasn't really sure about that, he hadn't seen his mom. He
could vaguely recall Trini coming by, but not his mom. "Is she okay?"
"Um...." His dad's face took on an even sadder caste. He blinked
back tears. Billy saw and suddenly remembered. The shooting... his mom's
funeral... how his dad had just been picking himself up out of the pit
of despair he'd been in when the whole clone mess really began. He could
feel tears welling up in his own eyes.
"Oh, Dad, I'm sorry.... I... I forgot. I didn't mean to...."
He blinked backed the tears. He could feel the exhaustion setting in again.
"I'm so sorry.... I'm...."
His father pulled him into an embrace. "No.... This is my fault...
I was so wrapped up in my own problems... I've been a monster parent."
Billy could feel his father's tears wet on his skin.
"No... it's... okay...." Billy couldn't find it in his heart
to blame his father.
"No it's not." His father hugged him hard. "But I promise...
things are going to okay. I want to start over...."
"All right...." Billy rested his head on the pillow and sighed.
Whatever, he thought, he'd caused his father enough suffering. He let his
eyes close and drifted off... only to slowly find himself listening in
to the doctor talk. Oh well, he thought to himself, it's eavesdropping
but...
"....no, he isn't catatonic, Mr. Reeves," he heard the doctor
say quietly. "He's very responsive...."
"But..." his father said, concern heavy in his voice, "He
doesn't seem... I don't know, fully aware."
"It's shock mostly." He could hear the doctor ruffle through
his papers. "Really... if this was all just physical, I would seriously
consider releasing him tomorrow. I'm concerned about his weight loss, of
course but that's very easy to fix. The light sensitivity isn't life threatening
and he just needs to be careful in the sun until he's more acclimated.
I'm also concerned about the partially healed skull fracture the x-ray
picked up, but it is healing...."
Skull fracture? Billy wondered... he'd been hit on the head but
he knew he hadn't been out for very long....
"... I think, judging from the good reflex responses and the MRI that
there was no permanent damage, though I'm sure his headaches haven't been
fun, and he'll probably continue to have them for a while. Its one of those
things we really can't be sure of until he's better physically. The wounds
on his back, legs, and chest look worse than they are...."
Wounds.... he didn't remember getting any wounds recently.
"... and fortunately there's no sign of infection. "
"Isn't...." His dad was hesitant. "Is there a greater danger
of... complications if he's home?" His father, he could tell, was
trying hard not to cry.
"From what I can tell and from considering the conditions that the
Pink Ranger described... the palace, for all its unpleasantness, was a
fairly sterile environment. I'd say at this point, it's likely his immune
system isn't up to snuff simply due to the lack of germs... but the marks...."
Billy could feel the doctor raising his shirt and broke his silence. "Don't
touch me...." he muttered and pushed away the doctor's hand. He twitched
nervously as the doctor's cold hand brushed again his skin. He struggled
to keep his eyes open.
"Billy, it's just me, Dr. Reardon." The doctor' voice was soothing,
and Billy could recall vaguely that it was the same doctor that he'd been
going to since he was little. He tried to relax a little as Dr. Reardon
examined the marks on his stomach. "Do you know how this happened,
son?"
Billy looked down at the marks, and tried to ignore his dad's sharp intake
of breath. He was a little too startled himself to worry much about his
reaction. There were long, jagged, scabbed over slashes on his stomach.
Some looked almost healed, and some looked very recent. Too recent. "I...
I don't know...." His voice trailed off. "I don't remember."
"Billy...." The doctor took a seat on the edge of the bed. "Can
you tell me what you do remember?"
"It was cold. And dark...." Billy stopped. It was cold, it was
dark. He was hungry all the time and scared to the point of barely being
able to sleep but... with the exception of the last few hours, when he
met Kat, he didn't have very many details to draw on. He held his head,
trying desperately to recall something... anything. Nothing... just an
empty blank place in his memory. "I don't... there's nothing there...."
He felt a sudden rush of terror and tears came to his eyes, despite his
efforts not to cry.
"Billy...." The doctor pulled his hands away. "It's okay...
We don't expect you to have instant recall. I'm just a little worried about
these cuts, but it's not that important. I don't want you to worry about
this, okay?"
Billy nodded, but with no real conviction. He wiped away the tears and
took a few deep breaths, trying to get some sort control back. Something
had to be wrong... his memory was usually pretty good. And he was afraid,
but of what? His father was upset too. He didn't like that at all... his
dad didn't deserve to be upset even more. He felt suddenly ashamed, to
cry in front of his father and... something touched the edge of his mind...
laughter. He felt his cheeks burning and backed away from whatever it was.
It didn't help that he was getting pretty sleepy again. "Okay... ,"
he said quietly, and he closed his eyes, giving in to his exhaustion. He
felt himself drifting off and tried to give in to the feeling but the doctor
was still talking to his dad. He liked Dr. Reardon but he wished that they
would take the conversation elsewhere.
"... is why I want to keep him here longer. A psychiatric exam would
help clarify if it's true memory loss or simply post traumatic stress."
"I just don't know if I want some strange doctor interrogating him."
His father sounded tired... he wondered if his dad had actually gone home
the last few days. "I mean... he isn't exactly easy talking to you,
and...."
"And I'm familiar, yes. Look, Ward,... whether its true amnesia or
not, you need to understand... post traumatic stress is going to be a problem.
He may never really remember what happened, or he could remember tomorrow.
He needs to be prepared for either. Counselling isn't an option, its a
necessity. I know several good therapists...."
Not good, Billy thought to himself. He didn't really want to discuss
much of anything with anybody, to be honest. And there were things he simply
couldn't discuss, even to a psychiatrist. Well, actually he could, but
telling a shrink that he was really a Power Ranger was not a good idea.
He'd end up in an institution. He just wanted out of the hospital sooner.
He drifted off... only to awaken minutes? hours? later. It was hard to
keep track of the time. The lights were still dimmed, though he could see
daylight stream through around the edges of the curtain. He brushed his
hair out of his eyes and looked around. His father was sitting in a chair,
asleep. Next to him, thumbing through a karate magazine, was Jason.
Billy felt a rush of compassion for Jason. Jason looked exhausted, like
he hadn't been sleeping well. He wondered why and then, the memory of the
clone's last moments hit him. Jason holding a gun... firing. The clone
going over the side, dragging him along. Trini pulling him up... and Jason
and Tommy beating the clone's hand off him. Then, they had pulled him up
and Trini had held him as he shook in terror. And then...
And then something happened, but... Billy struggled for the memory but
there was nothing. Just the same troubling blank spot. He worried. In his
heart, he knew, absolutely, that something had happened on the rooftop.
Something important.
But he let it go. For the first time since... before it all happened, he
felt rested. Like he might be able to keep his eyes open for longer than
five minutes. "Hi Jason." It suddenly struck him that it was
probably the first time he'd initiated a conversation in months.
"Billy? You're awake...." Jason got up and walked over to his
bed. "How're you doing?"
"I'm... awake." Billy didn't think Jason wanted to hear about
his memory loss, and beyond that, there wasn't much to tell. "A little
confused...."
"Why?"
"Well...." Billy felt himself blushing. "I thought... shouldn't
you be in Switzerland?" He didn't want to admit it, but he wasn't
quite sure what day it was, and Jason and Trini's presence continued to
confuse him.
Jason chuckled. "They gave us the summer off. School ended in Geneva
about two weeks ago. Remember? We talked about it on the phone last month...."
Jason's voice trailed off.
"No...." Billy sighed.
Jason blushed. It was, Billy thought suddenly, possibly the first time
he'd ever seen Jason do that. Jason was actually turning purple. He wondered
how to end the stalemate they had reached.
There was a sudden crash out in the hallway. Billy jumped, and felt himself
tensing up involuntarily. He had to physically fight the urge to curl up
in a protective ball. Instead, though he tried not to, he clenched the
guardrails of the bed.
"Hey... you okay?" Jason looked out into the hallway and came
back, his concern obvious. "Some nurse dropped a couple trays...."
"Okay...." Something about the look Jason was giving him made
him blush. A look of pity. Billy felt his anger rise suddenly. It's
so easy for Jason, he thought bitterly. He has no idea of what it
was like... how a loud noise meant someone had seen you and was coming
after you... or you'd made a noise accidently and drawn the attention of....
Of what? For an instant, he had been there. Lying on a cold stone floor,
his body throbbing painfully from the sudden harsh impact. Trying to catch
his breath back after running harder and faster than he dared risk in the
semi-darkness. Cringing from the prodding and slowly, fearfully looking
up into the face of.... He didn't know.
"Billy?" Jason edged towards the call button. Billy had gotten
suddenly glassy eyed and unresponsive. Bad enough to see his friend obviously
terrorized by loud noises, but Jason was getting worried. Billy was turning
an off shade of grey.
"Yeah...." Billy shook his head, willing the vision to a safe
place. He would consider it later, when he was alone. He blushed suddenly.
He didn't want his friend's pity or sympathy. "I've just been... kinda
tense lately... you know?"
Jason nodded. He'd been expressly warned not to upset Billy by the doctor.
Don't ask him questions, try not to react badly if he says or does anything
odd. Just be calm and supportive.... Jason heard the lie in Billy's
voice. He let it go. Disagreeing would make things worse. If Billy said
he was tense... then he was tense. Jason had no plans to argue with someone
so sick.
"So...." Billy could tell Jason was groping for something to
say. "How... how was Geneva?"
And for the rest of the visit, Jason told tales of Switzerland and wondered
if Billy actually cared.
* * *
Billy wondered, a week later, if his father was actually going to be able
to walk out the door and go to work. He knew his dad was worried, but he'd
never seen his father fuss quite so much. He looked down at the plate of
scrambled eggs and grinned as his father poured a glass of orange juice
for him.
"Dad...." He nudged the eggs with his fork. "I can pour
my own juice... and when did we start drinking juice anyway?" Coffee
had been the standard breakfast drink in the Reeves home longer than Billy
could remember.
Of course, a lot of things had changed around the house. He had noticed
yesterday, upon entering the house, that it was much neater than normal.
His lab had the same sparkly look that the hospital had... but he was,
he often was forced to admit to his teachers, lackadaisical at best about
cleaning up after experiments. His room was shockingly neat too. His closet
had a shoe tree... and it was being used. It was so... organized. That
morning, he'd gotten up and intentionally taken all the shoes out and dropped
them on the closet floor. Then, he grabbed the grungiest clothes he could
find and wore them. He wasn't going out after all... so who was going to
see his really ripped jeans and ratty old preppie shirt that he'd spilled
paint on. It was totally childish on his part but it made him feel good.
Like he was in control of his belongings again. He was shocked, after thumbing
through his wardrobe at just how much of his older clothes were still there.
Considering the clone's taste was not close to his own, it surprised him
to see his belongings still intact. Not that it really mattered much...
everything was a few sizes too big. He was lucky he'd found a belt, or
else he'd be holding his jeans all day.
"Eat your eggs." Ward waited until some egg actually made it
into Billy's mouth before he turned away. "And you are drinking juice
because it has Vitamin...." Ward blanked. "Well... Dr. Reardon
said it was good for you. So drink it."
There was a sudden knock on the door. "Oh good..." Ward wandered
off the down the hall, checking his watch as he did so. Billy smiled slightly
and sipped the juice. Hopefully his dad would leave soon. He could raid
the fridge for the junk food he knew was hidden behind the milk and wheat
bread. Somehow he doubted that his father had truly gone on a health kick....
"Hi Billy." He choked on his orange juice. It was Trini, of all
people. He'd thought it was the guys his dad carpooled with. Trini sat
down and helped herself to some toast.
"Uh... hi." Billy watched as Trini piled a mountain of eggs onto
a plate. Obviously she was planning on staying a while. He certainly didn't
seeing Trini, it just surprised him. His father and the doctors had limited
visits from his friends, and he hadn't thought that it would change so
soon.
Ward wandered back in and picked up his briefcase. "Well... I've got
to get going. I'll be home for lunch." He took in Billy's look of
bewilderment and said softly. "I asked Trini to come over... to keep
you company. You know."
"Oh...." He was rather put off by that. Yes, he'd been sick but
he didn't need a babysitter. "Okay...."
"Well... you two have fun." Ward awkwardly left, sensing in the
back of his mind that Billy was upset. Oh well, Ward thought quickly,
he'd be damned if he left Billy home with no one there. The boy was still
damn sick. And, it made Ward feel better knowing someone was there.
Trini waited until his father left to roll her eyes and grin. "Don't
worry," she said pleasantly, hoping to take away some of the stinging
humiliation that she knew Billy was feeling. She wished that Billy's dad
had said something sooner. "I promise we'll have a snack before naptime."
Billy caught her teasing tone. "Well... as long as we have snacks
then okay." He toyed with his eggs. "So... how did you get roped
into babysitting?"
"You're lucky..." Trini said. "My mom was gonna do it..
I convinced her that you would rather have someone hanging around all day
that didn't treat you like a five year old." She hesitated. "Um...
also, I know how hard it must be for you to get away and I thought you'd
appreciate someone who would... you know, go into a different room for
a while."
"Oh...." Billy saw her point. It was a kindness few of his friends
would understand. He'd spent so much time alone... everyone assumed that
he wanted to be around people constantly. For the most part, he wanted
to ease back into relationships. First with his father, and then with his
friends. He needed a little time, and Trini, his oldest friend, was offering
it.
Trini saw he got her point. She didn't want to belabor it. And, she had
another more important issue to bring up. She hesitated. Billy was less
than a day out of the hospital. He was still shockingly pale and no where
near his normal weight. She could see the fading remnants of bruises and
cuts. He was still pretty tense too. A lot of jerking back and forth at
noise, twitching. Not as much shaking, which she thought was a good sign.
She considered her next words carefully. "Um... Zordon's been pretty
worried too. You know that, right?"
"Yes...." Billy could sort of remember hearing Zordon ask how
he was doing through Tommy's communicator.
"Well... he wants to talk with you. You know... see how you are...
maybe discuss some... things." Trini paused. Billy wasn't really reacting
to her words. "I thought that if you wanted... you could transport
to the Command Center and talk, and I could cover for you here."
Billy considered what she was saying carefully. His thinking processes
were better, but he was no where near his usual comprehension speed. Trini,
he could tell, was rather apprehensive about broaching the whole subject.
Yet, he could see in her face that it was very important that he go see
Zordon. His curiosity got the better of him. "Sure... um...."
He reached for his communicator, and blushed. He'd had an older model that
Kat and Adam had scrounged up to rescue him with... but he hadn't seen
it since. It likely had come off in the struggle on the roof.
"Here...." Trini smiled and handed him her communicator. "Maybe
today you can find a new one, or make one."
"Yeah...." Billy pressed the buttons and transported.
* * *
The Command Center was strangely quiet. Billy shook his head and leaned
up against a computer console. Teleporting always made him feel slightly
dizzy, even when he was at his best. He blinked and silently wished that
the room would stop spinning.
"Billy," boomed Zordon from his stasis field. "It is good
to see you." Zordon noted that his volume had made Billy jump, and
adjusted it. The issues he wanted to discuss with the Blue Ranger were
sensitive to begin with. Making Billy even more tense was not part of the
plan.
"It's nice to be out of the hospital...." Billy wondered what
was up. Somehow he doubted that Zordon wanted to chat.
"I am sure." Zordon nodded. The giant floating head took on a
grim look. "Billy... I am truly sorry that I did not realize that
a switch had occurred. It is my fault that you were...."
Billy shook his head. "I don't... I don't blame anyone for what happened."
He was getting tired of hearing how sorry everyone was. When it came right
down to it, he only felt worse each time it was said.
Zordon nodded and let the subject go. "Billy, I am concerned about
your physical condition." Zordon didn't mention how worried he was
for the Blue Ranger's mental state. He could only hope that recovery was
possible... and that Billy was willing to go along with what he was about
to suggest. "I do not want to see you injured further by Lord Zedd
and Rita. I think you need some time to recover, without the threat of
battle to worry about."
"What do you mean?" Billy's head started to throb. He'd been
having headaches, bad headaches. Dr. Reardon had explained that he would
continue to have headaches for some time. Along with some physical therapy,
he was scheduled to have a few more MRI scans in the up coming weeks. The
doctors and his father hadn't said anything but he had overheard their
fears that he had sustained brain damage... that there had been an dark
spot on one of the scans. He massaged his temple and hoped Zordon would
cut to the chase.
"A vacation, Billy." Zordon paused. "Time you can use to
heal and regain your strength. Jason has offered to take your place on
the team for the summer. Trini will be taking Aisha's place until her broken
leg heals." Zordon waited for an answer.
"But when the summer is over...." Billy wasn't sure he understood.
"I... I don't want to quit, Zordon...."
"It is a temporary change." Zordon was inwardly pleased that
Billy did not want to resign. He had worried greatly that the experience
in Zedd's castle had stolen Billy's will to fight. Zordon was beginning
to have hope that if given time to physically recover, Billy would be all
right. Now, the task was to convince the boy that not only did he need
to take the summer off, but that he deserved the break. "I am worried
that a battle will overtax your strength and prolong your recovery needlessly."
He hesitated for a moment. "I think you understand that."
Billy nodded. He had been dreading the whole idea of a battle. Sure, he
was out of the hospital, but only he knew just how hard he'd had to plead
with the various doctors to get out. He felt dragged out. Weak. In a fight,
he'd be toast. A liability. "I guess... I could use a break. But just
from the battles...." He gestured to the computer banks. "I can
still help out...."
"Of course." Zordon agreed to that easily enough. The other Rangers
were not as skilled as Billy in technical areas. Certainly Adam and Kat
were able to perform the standard technical functions, but for more complex
situations, Billy would be needed. "As I said, it is a temporary change."
"Okay...." Billy took out his coin. Part of him knew that he
needed the break, and part of him simply didn't want to argue. In the back
of his mind, he wondered how temporary it really was. But, he knew Zordon
had his best interests at heart.
Zordon saw the slight hesitance. The transdimenasional being didn't want
to hurt Billy any further, but the change had to be made. Billy was in
no shape to fight. Zordon already felt terrible just seeing how ill Billy
really was. He hadn't wanted to believe Jason and Tommy's reports. And...
Zordon knew that if Billy didn't make a full recovery... physically and
mentally... the change was much less temporary than it looked. "Billy...."
Billy held up his hand. He really didn't want to hear it. He was starting
to feel odd. Zordon's tube seemed to be surrounded by blue light. "It's
okay... really." He set the coin down. "I could use the summer
off. And when the summer's over...." His headache suddenly thumped
into overdrive. A wave of pain crashed through his skull. He staggered
and slid to the floor, numbly hearing Zordon ask if he was okay. He looked
up, expecting to see Zordon but instead, his vision was obstructed by dazzly
spots. Then the spots faded into blackness....
* * *
Blackness. Billy reached out and felt the dark rock with his hand. Another
dead end. He trudged back down to the fork in the tunnel and tried to figure
out his next move.
The castle and its tunnels were a warren of twists and turns that was almost
impossible to learn. He was trying though. He wasn't sure how long it'd
been. Maybe a week. He had crawled off and hid for about a day, he thought,
waiting for the Rangers to come and rescue him. Finally, hunger and thirst
had forced him out. His stomach growled loudly, reminding him that he was
still pretty hungary.
Food and water were rapidly becoming very important to him. Water was simply
a matter of stealth. There were several faucets in the castle. He simply
had to avoid being seen. Not as easy as it sounded. His ribs still ached
from a blow from Goldar's sword. Goldar had spotted him getting a drink.
He'd been lucky the blow had been with the flat and not the edge of the
weapon.He was pretty sure his ribs were broken.
Food was worse. Most of the monsters did eat, but food was closely guarded
commodity. It didn't look that appetizing either. Monster food, not human
food. It didn't taste very good. He'd stolen a hunk of.... something. It
was dry and crumbly and the taste reminded him of paste. Dry paste. And
that meal had been a long time ago.
He pulled his shirt closer. It was cold too, though he had learned that
some areas of the palace were warmer than others. The area underneath Zedd's
throne room, for example, was frosty. He could see his breath sometimes.
The tunnels near the monster quarters were warmer, though the odds of running
into something were higher. He cocked his ears at the tunnel, listening
for the telltale thumping footprints of one of the monsters.
They were all after him. Zedd had harangued an assembly of monsters and
given the residents of the castle strict orders to find him. Then, Zedd
explained to the monsters, not knowing that Billy was hiding in an alcove,
when the Blue Ranger was captured, he would be killed in a very slow and
very painful manner, for the amusement of Empress Rita.
Fortunately for him, the attention span and retention level of Zedd's monsters
was very short. From his hiding place, he could hear several asking each
other what they were supposed to be chasing. Avoiding the monsters was
difficult but he was doing okay. He'd almost been caught a few times. It
was hard, finding safe places to hide just to catch some sleep, and it
seemed as though everytime he found a place to curl up... he was spotted.
Chased. And roughed up.
He put his hand to his aching ribs, and leaned up against the tunnel wall.
His ribs hurt each time he took a breath. Part of him wanted to sit down
and rest, but he knew better. Sure, he'd probably hear a monster coming...
they were kind of loud even when they were trying to be quiet, but he wasn't
going to take that risk. He pushed off the wall tiredly. Where should I
go now, he thought. He licked his dry lips and the decision came easily.
To the water tap.... the water would at least fill him up. He stepped towards
the right hand tunnel.
He heard a click, but he didn't register the danger until too late. Cold
metal touched the exposed flesh of his neck, and he felt an explosion of
pain. His entire body clenched up and all he could feel was the pain racing
through him. Faintly, he heard an electrical buzzing.
The pain stopped, as quickly as it started. He fell, face forward, onto
the cold stone floor. In horror, he realized that his arms and legs weren't
responding. He could feel... in fact he hurt so badly that tears were streaming
down his face, but something was very wrong. He could barely choke in air,
and his limbs were twitching involuntarily. Some kind of electric shock,
he thought slowly. Oh god... please let it be just a shock.... Rough
hands picked him up by his shirt and shook him, apparently checking his
responses. He watched his arms dangle and twitch, and tried to turn his
neck to see his captor but he was dropped before he could accomplish the
task.
A low, feminine chuckle. "Well.... Finster was right. Electrical current
does effectively immobilize you humans."
Goosebumps rose on his arms... he knew the voice, didn't he? Before he
could register where he'd heard the voice, he was flipped over. His eyes
widened in terror. It was Scorpina.
Scorpina laughed at his fright. She was in a pretty good mood. Normally,
life at the palace was pretty dull for her. If she wasn't part of the current
plan, she had little to do. When the order came down that the Blue Ranger
was to be found, her life suddenly took on a new dimension. An exciting
dimension. She had so much to do. Planning the hunt, consulting with Finster...
and the thrill of finding and stalking the prey. Not mention actually the
thrill of actually catching the Blue Ranger. She chuckled maliciously at
Billy, and with lightening quickness, she struck him with her whip.
He winced. He couldn't do much more... nothing was responding. His entire
body was clenching and unclenching. The whip stung, and he knew that if
he lived, it would probably leave a major bruise. Somehow though, he knew
Scorpina did it more to humiliate him than to hurt him. He felt the shock
wearing off a bit, in that he could catch his breath. He tried to inch
away, but Scorpina only chuckled, and stepped down hard on his chest.
"You can't escape me, Blue Ranger." She ground her foot down
on his chest. His ribs were on fire. He could feel the darkness closing
in on him.
"You... won't get... away with... this." he gasped. "The
Rangers... they're...." He tried to suck in more air.
Scorpina removed her foot and bent down close to Billy's face. "They're
what? Going to stop me? Please...." She stood and looked down at the
trembling teen. I really should call Lord Zedd, she thought suddenly,
but what will that do? Oh sure... Zedd will be pleased with me... for
now... and then what? Back to the daily boredom... unless.... She pondered
the thought. Hunting the Ranger had been so exciting. Why not... throw
him back? Have another chase....
She laughed again and with a mirthful chuckle, she swiped Billy with the
whip again, drawing blood that time. Then without a backward glance, she
walked away.
Billy groaned and slowly pulled himself up into a seated position. He took
several deep breaths and touched the bleeding cut on his chest. The blood
was sticky and warm on his hand. The Rangers will come soon, he told himself.
It's only a matter of time. I can hold out....
* * *
Hands were touching him. Reflexively, he curled into a ball, and covered
his head. He opened his eyes a crack. In front of him was a blinking computer
console. He was on his side, on a floor.... but not in the palace. He uncurled
a little.
"Billy? Aiy yi yi... Zordon, what should I do?"
The hands touched him again. He flinched and batted the hands away. Alpha,
he thought suddenly, it was Alpha. He was in the Command Center. He pushed
himself up off the floor. His head was still throbbing, and he felt nauseous.
"Oh... man...."
"Billy!"
He jumped. He never realized that it was possible for a robot to shriek
with happiness. "Alpha... not so loud...." He stood shakily and
looked up at Zordon. "Did I... faint...." The memory flash faded
away but left him feeling not only physically tired but... He rubbed his
chest pensively, feeling the ridge of scabs through his shirt. Funny...
it didn't really hurt anymore but... in a way it hurt worse.
"Yes, Billy...." Zordon's voice was heavy. Billy was still too
ill..."You were unconscious. It took several minutes to rouse you."
"Yeah...." Billy rubbed his head. It still hurt, but the weird
glow had gone away. "I... I had some sort of flashback...." But,
somehow, he didn't think Zordon would understand. Or could understand.
Zordon had spent the last ten thousand years in the Command Center after
all.
"Perhaps you should rest." Zordon suggested. He'd never meant
to cause Billy even more distress. On the other hand, the team did need
to be reorganized and immediately. The team had fought undermanned during
the last battle. They had done all right but it couldn't be a continual
thing.
As Billy teleported out, Zordon looked gravely at the coin Billy had left
behind. He wondered if he'd really done the best thing after all.
* * *
"Billy!" Rocky was pretty hyped up. He'd just gotten his test
scores back, and for once, he'd done really well. The others were still
taking tests, but Rocky had the rest of the day free. He had driven over
to Billy's with the intent of prying his friend out out the house. Billy
was convalescing, he knew, but he figured that it must get tiresome staring
at the walls all day. "My finals are done! Come on, I'll take you
out for lunch!"
Billy grinned. Rocky was so up, he suspected it would take nothing short
of a major crisis to bring him down. "Well...." He was hesitant.
"I'll have to ask... come on in."
"You have to ask?" This was new, Rocky thought to himself. Billy's
dad was known for his permissiveness.
"My father has gotten a little um... over concerned." Billy couldn't
think of a nicer way to put it. In truth, it was a good thing that Zordon
had relieved him of ranger duties a week earlier. His father had been in
and out of the house all week, despite work. It was slowly getting better,
but Billy knew that if he just walked out the door, the police would be
called in roughly a half hour.
"Okay." Rocky considered. "Is Trini here? We can all go
together...."
"No." Billy shook his head. "She had an appointment. That's
why my dad came home for lunch... not that he hasn't been home for lunch
everyday." Billy grinned wryly, and Rocky got the idea that perhaps
Billy was finding it a bit tiresome.
Rocky thought Billy's dad had the right idea. Billy looked... well... ill.
Certainly much better than before. Less nervous too. Rocky had been to
visit, both in the hospital and after, and he could see the changes. Billy
was less jumpy. That was good. Rocky wasn't a perceptive person but something
about Billy's demeanor told him that Billy was troubled. He'd heard from
Trini that Billy's memories of his time at the palace were sketchy, and
he had wondered if that was what was bothering Billy. Still, it seemed
to Rocky that having someone stay with Billy was a good idea.
After an extensive lecture from Billy's father on how Billy was not to
walk to the Juice Bar, eat greasy food at the Juice Bar, or in any way
overtax himself on the excursion, they finally got permission to leave.
As Billy ruefully donned his sunglasses, Rocky could now see some of Billy's
problem. Overparenting could be a drag when taken to extremes.
Upon entering the Juice Bar, Billy saw that it was nearly empty and the
few kids that were there were bent over their books studying for their
last finals. That was good, he thought. He wasn't completely unaware of
the small measure of fame the only known person to have been in Lord Zedd's
castle was likely to receive. He'd gotten cards, requests for interviews
and various other offers. The cards he'd written nice thank you's too,
the offers he'd turned down. He didn't want to discuss something he had
only fleeting memories of.
There had not been any more flashes since the one in the Command Center.
Only nightmares that left him waking up in terror and still not quite sure
why. The image of Scorpina stepping on his chest haunted him, if only because
he had a horrible suspicion that worse had happened. He was too marked
up for that to have been all. He hadn't told his therapist... mostly because
his therapist seemed put off by the whole situation. The poor man had no
idea what to ask, and Billy didn't feel like volunteering. They usually
discussed current events that Billy was behind on.
"Billy! Good to see you!" Ernie stepped from behind the counter
and clapped him on the back. "How're you feeling? You look good! You
two have a seat... whatever you want... on the house." Ernie bustled
off, leaving Rocky chuckling.
"Free lunch... we should go out more often." Rocky grabbed a
table and they sat down. In seconds, Ernie had thrown down cheeseburgers,
fries and shakes on their table, Billy's favorites. "Thought you weren't
supposed to have greasy food." Rocky added as Billy pounced on the
fries.
"If you tell, I promise, I will kill you." Billy said in a mock
serious tone. "Do you know what we eat now? Wheat bread, tofu, salad,
fruit.... It's depressing."
"Oh the horror." Rocky chuckled, though he was surprised. On
the rare occasions that he'd eaten at Billy's house, meals tended to be
fairly eclectic. It was, Kimberly had told him, completely normal for Billy
and his dad to eat ice cream for breakfast. Or tater tots, still frozen.
Or raw hamburger placed on bread. "I won't tell... just don't pig
out and get sick... then you'll be sure to get caught."
"Billy!" Billy jumped noticeably, though, Rocky thought to himself,
it was understandable. If Bulk and Skull had shrieked his name that loudly,
he'd have jumped to. The two junior cops sidled over to the table and sat
down.
"Sorry we roughed you up the other week...." Bulk said offhandly.
Skull nodded.
"S'okay," Billy muttered as he bit into the forbidden cheeseburger.
He still marveled at the idea of Bulk and Skull as junior cops, but they
seemed really into it. He was glad for them.
Skull looked at Bulk and Bulk nodded. They had an agenda, apparently. "Billy,
you said the Pink Ranger rescued you right?"
Both Rocky and Billy choked. "Um...." sputtered Billy, "Yes,
but she didn't tell me who she was...."
Bulk and Skull became crestfallen. "Well..." said Bulk, "Could
you tell us what the castle was like?"
Billy paled. Rocky threw a harsh look at Bulk. "Maybe," he said
in a quiet, angry voice, "it's not something he wants to discuss...."
"No...." Billy regained his composure, "It's okay... but
there's not much I can tell you... I don't remember very much detail...."
"Oh..." said Skull. He considered that, and then his eyes lit
up with another thought. "Did the Power Rangers ever apologize for
leaving you there for so long?"
"No... they didn't." Billy said softly. Seeing Rocky's crestfallen
look, he quickly added, "But I'm sure they meant too...."
"Well," said Bulk. "What do you remember about the castle?
Was it filled with monsters?"
"Did the monsters look like Klingons?" asked Skull.
"I can't believe they didn't even say they were sorry...." Bulk
added. It was obvious that he was disgusted. Disgusted and disappointed.
"I mean... geez... bad enough they left you to rot for four months.
I mean, you were pretty messed up... but to not even apologize... what
jerks."
"Well...." Rocky's voice was slow and hesitant. "Maybe they
are sorry... really really sorry, but they don't know what to say or how
to say it.... Maybe they don't know what to say...." Rocky blushed.
It was safe to say that all the rangers felt wretched abut the whole thing
but it was just such a hard topic to broach.
"I figured something like that...." Billy said to Rocky. "But
it's okay... I'm sure it's very hard for them and I know they are sorry."
"So you'd forgive them?" Skull asked. "Even though you're
so messed up?"
Billy continued to look at Rocky, hoping to make him feel a little better.
"Yes... I wish... things had worked out differently but...."
A familiar chime went off. Rocky excused himself and Bulk and Skull drifted
away, leaving Billy to continued chowing down the fries. He never realized
how good greasy fries were. He hoped Rocky felt better.... He knew the
rangers were sorry...
"Billy?" Rocky waved him into the alcove that he'd hidden in.
"We got a problem... Zordon thinks you should come with us...."
* * *
"This is weird Billy." Aisha stumped around the console that
he was working on. "I mean... don't you feel weird too? Seeing someone
else in your uniform?"
Billy sighed heavily. Aisha, in her inarticulate way, obviously expected
an answer of some sort. The truth was that he felt fine. It had seemed
strange, he admitted to himself, to not be heading off to the battle, but
someone else in his uniform? Not really a big deal. The truth was, after
his experience in the castle, being a ranger seemed easy. Tame almost.
Battling a monster in a power suit was nothing compared to outwitting one
with no power at all. "Well...." he said slowly, "It kinda
reminds me of when you and Adam and Rocky first joined the team. Different...
but okay."
"Well... I'll be glad when this cast is off and I can get back into
action." Aisha leaned her crutches up against a console and slid down
tot he floor. "Won't you?"
Billy fumbled with the components he was fixing. "I suppose... I haven't
really thought about it...."
Aisha nodded brightly. "Well... we both have the summer off. I probably
won't need that long. Maybe you won't either. And Jason certainly won't
mind...." More to herself, though Billy did catch her words, she added,
"He certainly likes keeping an eye on Tommy...."
"What? I don't quite follow...." Billy asked hesitantly. Aisha's
comment was a little bitter sounding, a tone he couldn't ever remember
hearing from her before.
Aisha lowered her eyes and looked away. She'd said too much. Billy had
enough problems to worry about without adding in the team's. She, like
the other rangers, had been expressly warned not to worry Billy with team
problems. Billy is ill, Zordon had warned them all, and should
spend his time recovering, not worrying about the team. Calling in
Billy on the current problem had been a last ditch method... Kat, Adam,
Trini and Alpha had puzzled over the console for hours . Billy had it up
and running in minutes, of course. "Oh...." she said slowly,
"Jason's just been... a little upset with Tommy...."
Billy's eyes narrowed. "Why?"
She gulped. Now what do I say, she thought to herself. I don't
want to lie... but it's kinda touchy... Stupid stupid, she thought
bleakly. She wasn't very good at lying anyway. "Oh... you know how
they can be...."
Billy sighed. Do I want to know? he asked himself. Yes, but it wasn't
worth the effort to grill Aisha. She was evidently trying to dodge the
issue, and he didn't feel up to prying it out of her. Besides, if it was
serious, his friends wouldn't keep it from him. He knew that. They had,
after all, called him in to deal with a problem, hadn't they?
Not a big problem, true. The console for some reason was always fussy.
Trini never quite mastered the knack of fixing it, and he had never bothered
to show Adam or Kat how to do it. He crawled back underneath the console
and continued adjusting it.
Aisha stood as the other rangers teleported in. They took off their helmets
tiredly. To Aisha, they all looked whipped. Beat. It must've been a
tough fight, she thought. She took in Tommy and Jason's scowls and
had a feeling she knew why the fight had been so hard. "How was it
guys?" She pointedly nodded towards Billy's legs sticking out under
the console.
"Jason, you can't use the WolfZord the same way you did the Red DragonZord.
You could've gotten us killed pulling that stunt!" Tommy's anger was
barely under control.
"Guys...." Aisha said softly. Kat, Adam and Trini picked up on
it. Rocky didn't but he was trying to calm Tommy down.
"Tommy... we're all okay and the monster's defeated." Rocky said.
"Yeah Tommy." Jason said darkly. "We're all fine... when
you can manage that, let me know."
"Guys!" Aisha shouted. Billy pulled himself out from under the
console. Tommy and Jason were fighting... over the team. Over what happened.
He could see from the other's faces that it wasn't a new argument either.
Rocky,Adam, Trini, Kat and Aisha all had the good grace to look embarrassed
by it. Tommy and Jason were circling each other, not even noticing he was
there.
"Jason, you have to listen to me when we're fighting! You can't just
run off and take a monster on by yourself." Tommy muttered.
"Maybe if you were a better leader, I wouldn't being using the WolfZord,
did you consider that, great white leader?" Jason shot back.
"Um...." Billy said, his face red. "I think... I'll head
back to my place if... we're through...." He fumbled with his new
communicator and teleported out before anyone could say a thing.
Back at his house, Billy suddenly felt the exhaustion crash on him like
a blow. Not only had he been up and around the Command Center fixing things
for hours, but he and Rocky had actually walked part way to the Juice Bar.
And Tommy and Jason arguing like that....
He didn't understand that. He didn't blame any of them for his imprisonment,
he'd made a point of not laying guilt trips. And, to tell the truth, every
single one of the Power Rangers, with Kat the lone exception, had a certain
level of blame to shoulder. He certainly didn't say that... it would be
cruel. But that was the truth. Everyone had been taken in by the clone.
No one had any right to blame anyone else... except Kat.
Kat, he thought as he prowled through the fridge, was surprisingly silent.
He didn't quite know what to make of her. She was definitely nice... and
he admitted to himself, she was pretty. Not as pretty as Kimberly... but
Kimberly was off at gymnastics camp and she was Tommy's anyhow.
Another weird change... Kimberly being gone. He missed her. Oh, sure, she
had called to make sure he was okay... In fact she called every few days
to see how he was. But, he realized, her voice had that sympathetic guilty
tinge that he heard from all the Power Rangers.
Except, he noted again, from Kat. Kat wasn't exactly cool to him but not
overly friendly either. Pleasant, definitely. He figured she was just waiting
for him to make the first overtures. Overtures that he looked forward to...
but not just yet. He wanted to get everything straight with all of the
others first.
He finally decided on a few peanut butter crackers... it was as close to
junk food as his father now allowed and set them nicely on a plate. After
a moment, he set a few more out. Trini would be by soon, and she liked
peanut butter crackers. Into the living room he went, and curled up on
the couch. Some TV, he thought as he spread out on the couch, and maybe
a nap....
* * *
In the semi-darkness, he didn't see the ledge until he stepped off it and
fell. He crashed down, arms and legs splayed out. It'd been months, he
thought, since he'd had enough coordination to roll out of a fall. Ukemi
was a great skill, but it was pretty dependant on the practitioner not
being so exhausted and weak that they could barely stand.
He crawled up and briefly felt himself over for blood. It was a precaution
he learned almost too late on one occasion. In the dark, blood appeared
as black, not red. The walls in the palace were always clammy and his bare
skin felt damp most of the time. A little extra wetness went unnoticed.
He'd cut himself badly on one occasion and not noticed the blood streaming
from his leg until he'd collapsed from dizziness. He'd been lucky. The
bleeding stopped... eventually. He hadn't been able to do much more than
huddle in a ball for what seemed like two days but he lived. That was something
he wasn't going to risk again.
No blood, he noted thankfully.He took the time to assess his over all condition.
Arms and legs... bruised, covered with semi-healed cuts. Body... pretty
much the same. Head... his head was aching. It was always aching. Ever
since he'd been beaten to unconsciousness by a gang of monsters, his head
hurt.
He shuddered remembering. He'd awakened in Finster's lab, of all places.
Fortunately for him, Finster's curiosity had gotten the better of him...
He didn't want to take the chance of having to depend of the mercy of one
of Rita's minion's again though. He'd gotten away as soon as he could...
but that didn't stop the nearly incapacitating pain. It came and went...
he waited a few moments just to see if the bearable pain would stay that
way and not become a blinding, nauseating migraine.
He took the time to try and get reorientated. The date and time was a lost
cause. He didn't know. He'd gotten to the point where he didn't care. Just
like how dirty he was... he only noticed when he really thought about it.
Dirty didn't begin to describe him any way. He felt the ragged shreds of
his clothes. His shirt was once plaid... blue plaid... he could just make
out the pattern underneath the layer of grime and the caked on blood.
He was in the lower level of the palace, he realized. Not a frequent spot
for monsters. There was a water tap located to the south. If he was quiet,
he could use the tunnel he was in to get to the water tap. He could get
some water. Tears suddenly welled up in his eyes.
Where are they? he thought as the unwanted tears made tracks on his dirty
face. Why haven't they come for me? I can't take much more of this....
For a few moments, he let his emotions overwhelm him and his body shook
with the force of his quiet choking sobs. He hugged his arms around his
body and tried to steady himself. It was hard. Finally, a few echoing footsteps
from the upper level drove away his despair, leaving behind fear, it's
close companion.
He couldn't afford it. He couldn't afford the self-pity, he couldn't afford
the wasted energy and worst of all, he couldn't afford the loss of concentration.
He shook off the sudden emotion and shakily stood, ears straining.
Nothing. He let out the breath he'd been holding. Some water, he
thought slowly, that would be good. Food would be even better... maybe
I can find something to eat. No food lockers to break into or trash cans
to rifle through on this level though. He sighed. He could go down
to Finster's lab... Finster was a human food junky. Candy mostly... though
on rare occasions, he'd snagged an order of fries and once, memorably,
an Arby's roast beef sandwich. He felt himself drooling involuntarily and
cursed himself. Don't be stupid, he chastised himself as he inched
along the tunnel, if you get anything to eat today, it'll be that monster
stuff. Finster's lab is a last resort... I'm not that desperate today....
* * *
He opened his eyes. The TV blared the theme to "Gilligan's Island."
He stared at it blearily, and grabbed a cracker. He wasn't hungry... but
the dream was upsetting. No doubt it was a memory. A bad memory. He munched
the cracker and took a drink of milk to settle his stomach. Milk?
he wondered as he looked at the glass.
"Oh... you're awake." He jumped a little at Trini's voice but
covered it. Trini made him nervous. It bothered him a little. Trini was
his best friend, but for some reason, he jumped every time she spoke.
"I thought you'd want something to drink with those." She added.
She was a little worried. Billy looked tired. Too tired. She wondered if
he'd been working too hard. "Say... I'm going to fix something for
dinner.... your dad said he'd be late. Why don't you.... uh... take a break?"
"Okay...." he said softly to her retreating figure. He hadn't
planned on getting up, to tell the truth. The castaways were looking for
the headhunters again, he noted as he laid back down. Somehow he doubted
being a castaway was that much fun but they made him laugh. He ignored
the slight blue tinge to his vision and closed his eyes. The blue tinge
had happened before... when he was tired, like when he spoke with Zordon.
His doctor had told him to lie down when it happened. Well, he thought
with a slight chuckle, I'll just do what I'm told.
He pulled a blanket over himself and closed his eyes, smiling a little
as he was lulled to sleep by the castaways' antics.
* * *
He drank thirstily from the water tap. He didn't notice the funny taste
anymore. Metallic, and with a faint stench, like the smell of sulphur.
He looked up and quickly glanced down both ends of the tunnel. Do I
have time? he asked himself. No one coming yet, yeah, I do.
He quickly splashed some water on his hands and face and tried to scrub
some dirt off. Futile really... but it somehow made him feel better. He
looked up again. Still no one. He bent down and took a another long deep
drink. He didn't know when he would be unmolested at a water tap again.
He moved away, towards a crevice he knew about. I can get up into there,
he considered, and head towards the trash barrels. He was too stiff from
falling and from previous injuries to risk breaking into a food locker.
Going through the trash was distasteful but safer. He crawled up and entered
the new level.
It was quiet. He staggered along until he found a trash can. For monsters,
the inhabitants of the lower tunnels of the palace were surprisingly neat.
The trash was, he realized, not very helpful. It seemed... full of things
he couldn't identify. Not much in the way of food. Some scraps... he ate
them. Food was something he had to have. The situation was dire enough
that he ate whatever was edible regardless of condition. Still, after serious
sifting through, he got maybe three mouthfuls of food.
He looked down the tunnel again. Still no one. A quiet day... rare but
they happened. He blinked... was that? He stepped closer to the object.
It was a small box. Rations.... He considered a moment.
Occasionally, he knew from experience, rations were left lying around.
It was rare, but it happened. More likely, waiting in the shadows was some
monster. A trick, in other words. The food was bait. It was a game the
monsters "played." He'd fallen for it a few times. He'd learned
a few tricks himself though....
Like not grabbing the box and running. That was way too unsafe. There could
be monsters all around. The second he grabbed the box, they would dive
on him. He would get hurt, like the last time. And what if they broke his
legs this time? No... grabbing it was out.
He listened carefully for what seemed like hours. A basic character flaw
of almost all the monsters was a serious lack of patience. If there was
a monster there, in hiding, it wouldn't wait very long before it got fed
up and left. Or before it forgot why it was waiting.... The monsters weren't
very smart. Most didn't remember who he was. He was just "that human"
that they knew was there. Even Zedd and Rita seemed to have forgotten him.
He knew if he waited, the monster would leave. After a certain amount of
time, he could be pretty certain it was indeed, just a box of rations.
There had been no noise at all. Could he really be that lucky, he thought
to himself. It was a fantasy... a whole box of rations was a week of food.
He could hide down in the lower levels and... and rest. Maybe sleep. He
furtively walked into the open tunnel and looked all around. Nothing. Okay....
he was gonna luck out. He grabbed the box and hugged it close. He didn't
notice the sticky slime on the box until he took a few steps and collapsed.
The tacky feeling on his fingers gave his slowly darkening mind the clue
it needed. It was a trap... something was on the box. A drug of some kind...
* * *
"Billy?" Trini walked into the living room quietly. She'd heard
the TV but really didn't expect to find Billy awake. She was right, she
saw. He was curled up in a ball on the couch, a pillow tightly clenched
in his hands. It looked uncomfortable... she considered waking him up.
He was tired though. She could see it. His eyes were almost black from
exhaustion. So, instead, she turned the TV down and tiptoed out of the
room. Better let him sleep, she thought with a smile, he needs the
rest.
* * *
A sharp kick brought him out of the drug induced stupor he was in. He didn't
know how long he'd been out. He tried to crawl away. Maybe I can get
into a crevice, he thought fuzzily.
Another kick to the ribs brought tears to his eyes. A foot sweep knocked
his hands out from under him and in seconds he was lying prone . The only
saving grace was that he was on his stomach. He still didn't know who'd
found him. It didn't matter... he was in for it. He saw the crevice only
a few feet. He tried to inch towards it.
"You! You damn rangers!" Scorpina snarled. "First you foil
Lord Zedd's plans then that Pink Ranger somehow manages to steal the Pink
Powercoin back! And now the Falconzord has disappeared!" Each phrase
was punctuated by a kick. Billy moaned but kept trying, almost instinctively,
to reach the crevice. He barely registered that Scorpina had mentioned
the Pink Ranger. Kimberly had messed up someone's plans... good. The rest
was gibberish to him. He was more concerned with his own situation. Scorpina
was raining blows on him, her temper was wild.
He gave up on crawling away. Instead, he pulled his arms around his head
protectively. He couldn't afford more head injuries. He prayed her temper
would be vented quickly.
She grabbed him and lifted him up. He shied away... Her face was so filled
with hate, he half expected her to kill him right then. Instead, she slapped
his face.
"You think it's funny, don't you?" She shook him and then smacked
him into the wall. He grimaced and fought the urge to cry out. He sensed
it would make it worse. She balled up a hand and hit him in the eye with
her fist. He wilted against the wall and tried to push her away but she
hit him again, in the stomach and he could barely keep his feet, let alone
fight her off.
"Don't mock me!" She grabbed him by the neck until he was standing
on tiptoes. His terror increased. Normally, Scorpina viewed catching him
as a source of amusement. She would beat him, of course, and then taunt
him. Humiliating, but survivable. The other monsters didn't have enough
wits to understand that there was a line that couldn't be crossed when
it came to injuring him. Scorpina understood that her fun would be over
if she lost control and permanently injured him or killed him. The other
monsters didn't see the need to pull their punches. But, he noted as his
terror reached a fever pitch, Scorpina was so angry... She'd lost control.
It was going to be bad....
She threw him to the ground. The drug had worn off and he scrambled to
reach the crevice he spotted before. She growled at his movement and swung
her whip at him. Her anger raged and she rained blows on him for what seemed
like forever, all the while shrieking inarticulately. Finally, her rage
ebbed away, or perhaps she got simply got tired.
He tried inching away again. He couldn't go any faster... It was instinct
that got him crawling and nothing else. She had beaten him nearly senseless.
He put a hand down and whimpered as pain shot from his hand through his
whole body. Wrist is sprained, he thought dimly, maybe broken.
Scorpina heard his crying and got up from her seat. His eyes widened
and he curled up in a protective ball. He shook in fear... he simply couldn't
take any more. But instead hitting him, she forced him to a kneeling position.
She stood over him and jerked his head back until he was looking up at
her.
"They aren't coming for you." Her words were cold and without
her usual evil grin. "They've forgotten you." She waited for
her words to register on the stunned boy.
"No." Billy knew he was crying but he didn't care. "They
haven't forgotten... they're just...."
"They've replaced you...." Scorpina saw that she had scored a
hit. "They don't even say your name. You only exist here."
"No...." His words lacked strength. His greatest fear was being
brought out. On the rare occasion that he got any sleep, his dreams were
haunted by the idea that he would live what was left of his life in the
castle. He shuddered. "They wouldn't replace me without trying to
rescue me... to save me...."
"You're dead to them." Scorpina eased her grip. "They think
you died. They won't be coming, Billy. Only I know you're still here."
"They don't think I'm dead." Billy trembled. "I'm not dead."
"You are dead... to everyone but me." She considered the tearstricken
kneeling boy and smiled maliciously. "You should thank me, you know."
She leaned up close to him and ruffled his dirty hair with her hand. "Without
me, you wouldn't exist. You'd be forgotten forever." She yanked his
hair viciously and bent back his head. "Thank me!"
"No...." His face was wet with tears and hot with shame. She
pulled his head back further until he felt it was going to snap. She leaned
in close to his terrorized face and snarled softly.
"Say it. Say thank you."
He couldn't breathe. The pain was torture. She was bending his neck back
to the point that he could feel the muscles straining. Oh god, he
thought frantically, she's gonna kill me.... I don't want to die...
I can't... oh god.... His face burned in humiliation. "Thank you..."
he whispered, feeling as if his whole world had crumbled. She was right,
he was alive because she hadn't killed him. He tried to get control. She
could still kill him, the quiet survival voice in his head told him. But,
the voice wasn't as strident as usual.
She smiled and loosened her grip to allow him to return tot he kneeling
posture of a supplicant. "Say thank you, Scorpina." she prompted.
"Thank you Scorpina," he said woodenly.
Scorpina chuckled. "Now say, I exist only because of you."
He did. "I exist only because of you."
"Both. Again."
The survival voice was suddenly overtaken by a new voice. Once is enough,
the new voice said in a low growl. You don't want to die... fine. No
one will ever judge you badly for doing what you have to survive... but
saying that again is giving up. Giving up everything. How long do you think
you'll live after that?
The voice had a point. He lowered his head, knowing full what was about
to happen. "No."
"What?" Scorpina's eyes narrowed. She stood over him. "What
did you say?"
"No." A little louder that time. The new voice in his head was
overriding the survival voice. He waited for the blow.
It came quickly. With an inarticulate shriek of rage, Scorpina savagely
clubbed him down. Blow after blow rained down on him until he couldn't
even feel it. He was numb to the pain. Hands reached down and shook him....
* * *
When he opened his eyes, a pretty Asian face was curiously peering at him.
Billy gasped and felt his heart skip a beat. A wave of terror rushed through
him, causing his whole body to tense. "No... go away!!" he cried,
pushing her away as hard as he could.
He rolled over to get onto his feet, and fell to the floor, hitting his
head on the coffee table as he went down.
"Billy!" Trini gasped, "calm down... it's just me...."
She reached out to comfort him.
Billy didn't hear her. He jerked away from her touch and struggled to regain
his feet. Run! he thought to himself, dammit, run! she's found
you again.... His head was swimming and everything started to go hazy.
The room was spinning and lit by an eerie blue glow. Had Zordon finally
found him? Was he being rescued... teleported out?
Just in case, he tried to run anyway. An aching tension seized him and
he fell to the floor, moaning.
Trini's eyes went wide with horror. Billy's eyes rolled back in his head
and he began shaking uncontrollably, making awful gurgling sounds. He was
having some sort of seizure. She froze for a minute, dumbfounded. Billy
wasn't epileptic.
Realizing she needed to act fast to prevent Billy from hurting himself
further, Trini came out of her stupor and heaved the coffee table out of
Billy's way. She then tipped him to his side so he could breathe easier.
She wanted to hug him, to comfort him in some way, but she knew she shouldn't
touch him. Instead, she removed her light jacket and protectively threw
it around Billy's shoulders, making sure it wouldn't accidently strangle
him or cover his face. She dashed into the kitchen to call an ambulance.
When Trini returned, Billy had stopped shaking. He was trembling slightly
and convulsively sobbing softly to himself.
"Sssssssshhhhh, sssssssshhhhhh...." she whispered, kneeling down
next to him and placing a reassuring hand on his forehead, smoothing back
his sweat-drenched hair. "Billy, you're going to be okay..."
She wished she could believe that herself.
* * *
Billy looked around--lost. He'd been moved again. He tried lifting his
hand to his eyes to wipe away the blearyness, but his hand didn't respond.
He strained his eyes, horrified, to find he was restrained.
A wave of panic flooded through him, tightening his throat--he was in Finster's
lab again... no... it was too bright. And warm. And he wasn't alone.
"Billy?" A warm hand reached out and stroked his hair.
He shuddered, yanking painfully at the restraints. "Please, Scorpina...
no...." he choked, "Please leave me alone... don't touch me...."
he repeatedly muttered under his breath, shutting his eyes.
Staggering backwards, Trini jerked her hand away. She could feel hot tears
welling up in her eyes. Billy thought she was that... that awful she-beast.
She was trying to help him, and had only succeeded in scaring him senseless.
Billy's eyes flashed open again. "Trini? Trini? Is that you?"
A panicked edginess tinged his voice. "Where am I?"
Trini took a few steps towards the bed, then stopped. She didn't want to
scare him again. "I'm here, Billy," she softly answered.
"Where?" Billy whimpered, straining his head to find her. "Where
am I?"
Trini couldn't help it any longer--she instinctively rushed forward, ignoring
Billy's sharp gasp as she came into his view. She noticed he was still
rather disoriented. "Right here," she finally answered, hesitantly
reaching out to touch him.
She rested her hand on Billy's head again. "You're in the ER... you
had a seizure...." Billy started crying. "What happened?"
she gently asked, hoping to find out what triggered the seizure--hoping
to relieve the awful suspicion that it was her fault.
"Oh God, Trini... it was awful," Billy sobbed. He tugged at the
restraints again. His head was throbbing. He felt like his whole body had
been painfully sprung, like a watch that had been wound until it broke.
The blue tinge had returned, though no where near as strong as before.
Trini looked weirdly backlit by blue... blue and a reassuring yellow. He
tried to relax as much as he could. "You... you can't understand...."
Trini leaned in closer. She didn't know what to do. Should she ask him
for details? Press him? Just reassure him that it was over? She didn't
know. "Billy, I'm your friend. You can tell me...."
"Trini...." He choked on the next few phrases, rushing to get
them out. "I... I couldn't breathe.... Sh-sh-e was ch-choking me...
blood... I w-w-was b-b-b-bleeding and she kept hitting me... and-d-d-...."
He broke off, barely able to choke in air.
Trini knew there was more. She had known Billy her whole life and she knew
something terrible had happened. She knew what to do now.. no matter that
a big part of her didn't want to know. "Billy... don't stop... what
happened next?"
He felt himself shaking. "I couldn't breathe... she-she was... She
made m-m-m-me b-beg her... I... I had to... I didn't w-w- want to die...
I'm s-s-orry...." His sobs were quiet. Almost as if he was trying
desperately not to attract attention.
"Oh Billy...." Trini leaned over him and placed her arms around
him. She felt her own tears returning and willed them away. Later,
she told herself, later I can cry. "Billy, you didn't do anything
wrong. She would have killed you." Trini looked deeply into his eyes.
"Don't ever be sorry for doing what you had to. Do you understand?
Because if you hadn't done what she asked... I know I wouldn't be able
to talk to you right now. Don't ever regret keeping yourself alive."
She gave him an awkward hug. Slowly, his breathing returned to slow, easy
breaths.
"Hello." Trini spun around and Billy jerked harshly at the sound
of the new voice. It was a doctor, in a white lab coat, not in the scrubs
of the ER. He smiled and ran a hand through his dark brown hair. "I'm
sorry... obviously I startled both of you.... I'm Dr. Ericson."
"Okay...." Trini took that as her cue to step back. Ericson smiled
at her, in that you're not the patient so back off way that doctors
had, and turned his attention to Billy.
"I hate seeing you back in here, Billy." Ericson said conversationally
as he gave Billy a cursory examination. "Do you remember me?"
"No...." Billy said nervously. "There were a lot of doctors...."
Ericson glanced at a sheaf of papers as Billy spoke. "Well, I'm not
surprised...." He checked Billy's eyes with a pen light. "Have
you been having headaches lately? Maybe when you're tired?"
"Yes...." Billy admitted. He saw Trini flinch a little and the
doctor frowned.
"Maybe you've not been getting enough rest?" Ericson said as
he jotted down some notes. "Did you have a bad headache today? Wait,
why don't you tell me what you remember...."
Billy hesitated. His headache was still there and it was getting worse.
"I was taking a nap... and... and I had a really bad dream...."
"About your time in Lord Zedd's castle?" The sudden and yet offhand
way Ericson asked the question made Billy's eyes narrow.
"Yes." Billy shook his head. He was too tired to fend off a psychiatrist.
"And Trini woke me up and... I... I mistook her and...." He felt
himself starting to tremble. "I don't remember... I woke up here....
Can you undo these?" He tugged at the heavy leather restraints.
The doctor smiled. "Not just yet... I want the results from a few
tests...."
"What the hell is going on?" Ward Reeves stormed in. His tie
was loosened and he had the wild eyed pasty look of someone who had just
taken a bad shock. Which, Trini realized, he had. "Billy! Are you
okay? What in hell happened?" Ward spun on Trini. "What did you
do?"
"I...." Trini backed up.
"Dad..." Billy said softly. The weird blue tinge in his vision
heightened. He clenched his hands to the hospital stretcher, trying to
will the shaking to stop.
"Dammit Trini! "
"Mr. Reeves!" The doctor spun Ward around and shook him hard.
"Calm down..." He pointedly glanced at Billy. "You aren't
helping...."
"Dad.. its not Trini's fault...." Billy felt the shaking increase
and he closed his eyes. He felt something prick his arm and opened them
just in time to see the doctor withdraw a needle. "What..."
"Just a sedative Billy...."
Billy nodded. He could feel the sudden heaviness and closed his eyes again.
He drifted off, picking up bits of conversation but nothing really making
sense.
"no... the cat scan was clean..."
"but what..."
"... coupled with the sudden memory return... it was too much... the
pressure... the head injury added to it... the MRI had that shadow..."
"... happen again?"
"... needs time... probably stress induced... ekg is okay..."
"... what stress..."
If only you knew Dad, Billy thought ruefully. Then he let the drug
take him away.
* * *
"Guys, look." Adam pointed to the slowly advancing figure. "Billy
escaped from his cage." He leaned back in his chair at the outdoor
juice bar and chuckled. His folks had reacted much the way Billy's dad
had. Adam had been confined to the house for days, and was still restricted
from certain activities. Not that he was complaining... Adam knew he'd
come just a little too close to dying only a month earlier. He was just
starting to feel good after sparring, and not just winded.
Rocky and Tommy nodded along, and looked uneasy. Billy had, since having
the weird seizure Trini told them about, gotten awfully strange. He started
remembering things that happened, Trini had said, and then started crying.
Trini crying was a sign tot he rest of the Rangers. Whatever he had told
her had been bad. Real bad.
Rocky didn't want to know. He felt like hell already. He didn't want to
know the grim details. Just looking at Billy told him enough. Whatever
Billy would say would only make him feel worse.
Tommy felt differently. The forces of darkness would pay for what had happened
to Billy, Tommy knew that. He was more concerned with how Billy felt about
the rangers in general and if he would ever be able to rejoin the team.
In Tommy's opinion, Billy was not really getting better. Sure, physically,
Billy was better. It was hard to get much worse really. Mentally, of course,
was a completely different story. Tommy didn't know what was up. Billy
was being... weird. It was the sort of situation that he ordinarily would
have talked with Jason over... but Jason blamed him and wouldn't let it
go. And Tommy refused to be held responsible for the entire situation.
If Jason was so smart, he mused bitterly, why hadn't he noticed the clone?
God knows they had chatted on the phone enough.
Billy pulled up a chair and sat down with them. He was tired. Sleep had
lately become a lost cause. He was starting to reconsider his therapist's
offer of sleeping pills. He was having nothing but nightmares, the problem
made worse by a hyper father and a therapist that was into chemical therapy.
His father was in and out of his room at night, making sleep difficult
to begin with. His therapist wanted him to check into the psych ward for
observation. And his friends... his friends were concerned. That was nice.
He just wished they would talk to him instead of just sitting there.
Like right now. He sighed.
"You okay, Billy?" Adam asked. Billy looked tired. Well, Adam
qualified, more tired than usual. "You look tired..."
"I haven't been sleeping well." Billy waited to see what affect
his words had. Tommy glared through the window.... Jason was evidently
glaring back. It was safe to say Tommy hadn't been paying attention. As
usual.
Rocky cringed a little and lowered his eyes. Another normal reaction. Billy
understood that one a little better. Rocky simply felt bad about what had
happened. More than the other Rangers, Rocky seemed to be kicking himself
hard over it. Or, Billy mused, maybe it shows more with Rocky.
"Not sleeping well. Oh." Adam sighed and mentally braced
himself to hear something awful. Billy almost smiled at that. Adam was
tensing up, waiting apparently for an onslaught of emotion.
"I uh, gotta go." Rocky slunk away. Billy watched sadly. He didn't
know how to help Rocky. Tommy took that as a cue to walk inside. That left
Adam, waiting for Billy to spill something awful.
Billy sighed again. He wanted to talk to someone. Needed to, really. Trini
tried, but she got so upset, and he hated to see her cry. He doubted that
she had been getting much sleep lately either. His other friends tended
to avoid him. But, he suddenly realized, Adam was still there. Tense perhaps,
and probably hoping that he would just say nothing, but there.
"So...." Adam wasn't quite sure what to say. "You've been
able to remember stuff, Trini says..."
"Uh huh." Odd, he thought, Adam sounds curious. Well, a little
curious. "Enough, anyway." He tried to smile. "At least
now I know where all these scars came from." He rubbed his arm as
he spoke.
"Yeah..." Adam looked at Billy's arm. Pale... but no scarring.
Adam had heard stories from Trini... stories about hideous scars. Billy's
arms showed no signs of such treatment. Adam really didn't want to see
some obvious disfigurement but he was confused. "How'd you manage
to end up with no visible scars? I mean...."
"Do you really want to know?" Billy was blunt. "Because
I... I need to talk to someone about this, and if you get up halfway through
because you can't handle it...." He hesitated. "It's hard enough
talking about it, you now?"
Adam nodded hesitantly. With that in mind, he knew he'd sit and listen.
He didn't want too, but he owed Billy that. "Okay. So... how did you
end up with no visible scars?" He gestured to Billy's arm. He was
rather curious about it. "It doesn't look like you got hurt at all..."
"No." Billy said thoughtfully. "I was being chased by Scorpina...."
"Scorpina?" Adam shuddered. " You never said she was there..."
"I got away... that time."
Adam noted the hesitance. I didn't want to know that, he told himself.
Scorpina did something to him.... something that went beyond the stupid
trick she pulled on me. Adam could see the haunted look in Billy's
eyes.
"But I fell down... well... it was like stairs. " Billy continued,
not realizing the scrutinizing look Adam was giving him. "A rock or
something... I cut it deeply. I was afraid I was going to bleed to death.
I'm pretty sure the bone was cracked. I couldn't use my hand at all..."
"But..." Adam took a good look at the arm. "It really looks
fine. What happened?"
Billy sighed. "That's where it got really strange."
* * *
....Billy huddled in the alcove, trying to retain some warmth. The caverns
under the palace were some of the chilliest area at times, but they were
also the most practical. Lots of niches in which he could hide. And, if
he found one small enough, he was able to stay relatively warm and well
hidden for a few hours. Precious hours during which he could rest.
For some reason, a lot of the monsters didn't like to come down here. It
was very dark--darker than most areas of the palace--but, that wasn't reason
enough to prevent a monster from trying to catch its favorite toy.
In fact, he had been running from the Primator, but Primator broke off
his pursuit when they neared the caverns. Even Scorpina didn't dare come
down here. He briefly wondered why, then pushed it from his mind--there
were more important things to think about. He sighed--it would be the ideal
place to hide until the Rangers could come and get him, if only there were
a source of water. All the same, it was a good place to get some sleep.
And sleep was what he really needed. Billy was exhausted. His head was
pounding--it felt like someone was stabbing him behind the eyes. His whole
body ached. He was sure that he had been running on pure adrenaline for
the past several days--he couldn't even remember the last time he had a
chance to lay down. Accidently falling asleep on his feet nearly got him
caught today.
Billy shifted position and winced in pain as his right arm brushed against
the rock formation. He looked at his arm--it was bruised badly and bleeding
again. Scorpina had caught him several days earlier, and in trying to get
away, Billy had fallen down a flight of stairs and badly cut his arm on
the jagged rock. He was lucky that it wasn't broken--nor any other part
of him, for that matter. He pulled his arm close to his body and wrapped
the lower part of his shirt around it, trying to stifle the bleeding. Billy
bit his parched bottom lip to prevent from crying out, and only succeeded
in drawing blood from it as well. He started to feel light headed and dizzy
and fell from his alcove. He stumbled through the darkness, as if in a
dream, trying to regain his hiding place.
A cool hand fell on his shoulder. Billy jumped and turned, half expecting
to find Scorpina.
He threw his arms up to protect his face and yelped in pain as an intense
white light assaulted his eyes. The light dimmed slightly as Billy's eyes
slowly adjusted. In the center of the light was a figure he vaguely recognized...
"Mom?" he weakly stammered, blinking in disbelief and fighting
back tears. "But... but, I don't understand... you're...." He
couldn't say it. He started crying.
"Sssssshhhhhh," the figure responded, encircling Billy in her
arms. She drew Billy close to her body, bathing him in the warm light that
surrounded her.
Billy continued to sob in her embrace, even though he felt a wonderful
sense of comfort as the light penetrated his chilled body down to the icy
fingers and toes. Her cool hands stroked away some of the tension from
the previous months.
Billy began to feel sleepy--a heavy, oppressive drowsiness was pushing
down on him, clouding his mind. It was like nothing he had ever felt before;
it frightened him. "Am I dead?" he murmured, fighting to stay
awake. Somewhere in the back of his mind, he thought he heard her softly,
but nervously, chuckle.
His mother stroked his hair. "No, sweetie," she whispered.
More tears welled up in his eyes. His eyes fluttered sleepily, causing
a few of the tears to spill down his face. "But I'm going to die,
aren't I?... Why?... Why haven't they come for me?"
Billy felt her embrace tighten around him. She didn't respond.
"Please don't let me die..." he softly sobbed.
Eventually the drowsiness overtook him and he withered in her arms.
When Billy awoke, he was lying against a massive stone formation that seemed
to be a pedestal or altar of some sort. Billy put his hand against the
rock--it was surprisingly warm, not cold and damp as he expected.
Billy staggered to his full height, feeling every cramped, still joint
in his sore body groan and crack with the sudden shift.
The formation truly was a pedestal. On it stood a large, gleaming multi-faceted
crystal, surrounded by a hazy, ethereal forcefield.
He felt strangely drawn to the crystal, as if some otherworldly force gripped
him. Moving without volition, he half-consciously slipped his hand through
the forcefield and dizzily set it on the crystal.
A bright snakelike energy beam shot up from the crystal, entwining Billy's
arm. Expanding, slithering up to his shoulder, and tugging at his body,
it drew him further inside the forcefield until the field completely enveloped
him.
Another beam shot out from the crystal and penetrated his body, sending
a spine-tingling surge of power flooding through him. Billy felt his body
and mind expanding, filling the room he was in, as if he were floating
above it and not contained within its walls. Several images flitted briefly
before hie eyes--his family, his friends, a statuesque blonde girl whom
he did not recognize, strange aliens, other Rangers. And all the while,
the crystal loomed large in the background. He watched with detached fascination
as the gash on his arm, and several other of his more serious wounds, melted
away into fresh, clean skin--unbroken by any recent signs of trauma or
scarring.
He blinked and was standing outside the forcefield again, his arms dangling
limply at his side. Noting that his arms were truly healed, he passively
staggered away from the crystal, commanded by... he did not know...
Later. It reassuringly echoed in his mind. Later. The crystal would be
very important to him. Later...
* * *
He waited for Adam to speak. He'd chosen the least nasty memory of the
palace to tell Adam, hoping that his friend could handle it. Maybe even
have some ideas as to what the crystal and vision had meant.
"Ummm." Adam had no idea he was opening such an ugly can of worms.
To him, it sounded as though Billy had just related a grade A hallucination,
but he could tell Billy believed in what happened. "Um... Billy...
have you told your therapist about this?" Adam hoped so... it seemed
that Billy was about two steps away from a breakdown of classic proportions.
"No..." Billy sighed. It had been a mistake, he realized. Adam
was not only pretty freaked out but starting to get that guilty, pitying
look that most of his friends used. "My therapist doesn't want to
hear stuff like that. I'm gonna go... maybe take a walk in the park."
He didn't want Adam's pity....
Adam watched Billy leave, feeling guilty that he felt relieved that Billy
was gone. Adam knew he'd just blown it, he wasn't sure how, but he had.
* * *
Zack inhaled deeply and smiled. The park smelled as fresh and clean as
he remembered. He had missed it. In Switzerland, he had kept the whole
idea of going home as his hedge against homesickness. Then, his parents
had dropped their bomb. They were moving to Denver. He wouldn't be going
home to Angel Grove after all. It had hurt, especially when he got off
the plane in Denver and Trini and Jason had headed on without him. It had
hurt even worse when two days later, Trini had called him and cried hysterically
for ten minutes before managing to choke out what had happened.
Zack had been horrified. So had his parents. Billy was more than just another
unfortunate victim of Lord Zedd and Rita Repulsa. He was a friend of the
family. Zack couldn't count how many holidays their families had spent
together. His parents had agreed to let him spend the summer in Angel Grove
with his grandparents because they knew he was worried about his friend.
He was worried about Billy, but Zack let himself be honest. He missed Angel
Grove. As much as he was deeply worried about Billy, he couldn't stop himself
from feeling good about coming home. It felt good.
The good feeling didn't deter him from his mission though. He was looking
for Billy. He had kept his visit as a surprise, though after being briefed
by the others, he wasn't sure that surprising Billy was such a good idea.
As he spotted Billy sitting on a bench feeding the ducks by the lake, he
mentally reviewed all the little rules the others had given him. "Yo
Billy!"
He faltered a little when he saw Billy obviously jump. Oops, Zack
thought as he trotted up to Billy, well, too late now. He frowned
as he saw how pale and shaky his friend was. Billy was wearing a jacket
despite the summer sun. Zack wondered how much of an improvement it was....
Trini had painted a pretty graphic picture and the few times he'd gotten
to call Billy, Billy hadn't quite seemed there.
"Zack?" Billy put down the bread crumbs he'd been throwing and
stood shakily. "How'd..." He st down again, suddenly dizzy. His
head had been aching again since he'd chatted with Adam. He'd gone to the
lake to try to relax.
Zack quickly moved to his side and sat down with him, cursing his idea
to surprise Billy. "Didn't mean to scare you man."
"No... no... I'm just really surprised." Billy paused. He realized
that he hadn't lied. He'd been surprised, but that surprise was not in
any way tinged with fear. He smiled broadly at Zack. "It's good to
see you."
"Cool." Zack's face lit up. Billy seemed all right. Not well,
but not freaking out either. "I talked my folks into letting me stay
with my grandparents for the summer."
"Zack, that's great." Billy grinned. Then, his headache increased
in intensity. He winced and put a hand to his head.
"You okay?" Zack's happiness quickly passed.
"Yeah..." Billy's voice was soft and Zack could tell he was trying
to keep the pain out of his voice. "I... have bad headaches sometimes...
because of the skull fracture...."
"Ouch..." Zack was silent for a moment. "How'd you break
your skull?"
"I got beat up. In the castle. By some monsters." Billy hesitated.
"I thought I was going to die."
"But you didn't. You must've gotten lucky." Zack was getting
worried. The others had warned him that talking about the castle seemed
to upset Billy.
Billy stared pensively off at the lake. "No.... it wasn't luck...."
He shifted uncomfortably on the bench and finally removed his jacket. "Is
it getting hot?"
* * *
Hot... He couldn't remember the last time he had felt this hot. He could
sense precious time slipping through his fingers as he struggled to stand.
The fall--he felt himself falling. His head began throbbing again... a
dull thud... still falling. Funny, he didn't remember actually hitting
the floor.
Distant voices echoed in his head--low murmurs, hushed whispers. Scuffling
feet alerted him to some movement nearby--maybe a few corridors over. Or
on the floor above him. Then, as suddenly as they had come, the sounds
were gone.
On his left side, the floor felt cool and hard against his skin. Maybe
if he rolled onto his stomach and pressed his face to the floor, it would
cool him down... no... gone... the sensation was gone. His best bet was
to try and muster the strength to crawl down into the lower caverns.
Wait... now the cool sensation tingled at down his back. But it was different
somehow.
Billy struggled to open his eyes. A large grey mass hovered over him. He
strained to bring his eyes into focus. It hurt--gave him awful headaches--but
he had lost his contacts quite some time ago.
Finster... the grey thing was Finster. A bright glint caught Billy's eye.
A needle... he had a needle.
"No. Please--" Billy begged, but was silenced as Finster slapped
a hot, muggy paw over his mouth. He whimpered as he felt the cold needle
slide into his upper arm and a burning liquid forcefully oozing its way
into him.
Billy struggled to push Finster away but was held back by the cold metal
restraints that clamped his arms and legs to Finster's slab table. His
efforts amounted to nothing more than the hollow rattling and clank of
metal on metal.
"For goodness sakes, be quiet!" Finster hissed as he withdrew
the needle and threw it aside. His voice sounded almost as panicked as
Billy felt. "If Empress Rita finds you here, she'll kill us both!"
Billy ceased struggling. Rita didn't know he was here... yet. Besides,
he was too weary to continue his efforts. And too hot. Whatever Finster
had injected into him was slowly creeping through his bloodstream and nearly
doubling the uncomfortable, feverish sensation he was experiencing. A bluish
tinge clouded his vision.
Finster regarded the drugged teenager apprehensively for a few seconds
before withdrawing his paw. Bright red blood stained his hand. He curiously
studied it through his bi-focals for a few seconds before it dawned on
him that it was Billy who was bleeding, not him. Besides... his own blood
had a rather greenish-grey tint to it.
Billy cringed as Finster touched a finger to his trembling lip where it
was bleeding.
"Fascinating," Finster remarked more to himself than to Billy,
"you humans bleed so easily." He pulled Billy's lip back, ignoring
the fact that the sudden movement startled the teenager, causing him to
jerk nervously against the restraints. "And your teeth are so small,"
he commented, running his fingers along the smooth ridge of teeth set in
Billy's lower jaw. "How do you eat?" His finger slipped off of
Billy's teeth and further into his mouth, causing the young man to gag.
"Oops... sorry," he mumbled, pulling away from Billy and wiping
his hands on his apron. "You're a very sick young man," he matter-of-factly
stated. "I can't seem to get your temperature back up--"
"Up?" Billy croaked, closing his eyes against the increasing
blue tinge and pounding in his head. "But... but I'm so hot... it's
only supposed to be 98.6..." He could feel himself losing consciousness.
The sound of shattering glass reverberated in his head. Billy snapped his
head in Finster's direction, causing a wave of pain and nausea to rush
through him. The monster had dropped the beaker he was working with and
was staring at him, dumbfounded.
"98.6? Oh my...." Finster puttered back to the table, stepping
over shards of broken glass, "That changes things quite a bit."
He touched a muggy paw to Billy's face. Billy shuddered--Finster's hands
were the size of his entire head. "You are already at 104. I was trying
to elevate your temperature to a stable, comfortable 110. I thought--"
Finster broke off. Billy heard the clank of the restraints being released
as Finster hurriedly bundled him in a blanket. "Well, it doesn't matter
what I thought..."
Billy's head reeled as Finster jerkily heaved him upwards and proceeded
to carry him out of the lab. Everything slipped from view and was replaced
by inky blackness. He lost all sensation and was only dimly aware of what
continued on around him.
"We need to get you below--there are cold springs down there which
we can use to reduce your temperature..." the monster prattled on.
Finster stopped dead in his tracks. "Oh dear..." he muttered.
Billy distantly heard himself moan some sort of response.
"It's Scorpina."
* * *
"Oh god," Zack gasped, "what happened next?"
Billy vacantly stared over the glassy surface of the lake. A look of consternation
darkened his face. "I don't know..." he distantly replied, blinking
back tears, "I don't remember... I lost consciousness..." He
shuddered--something touched the corners of his mind... something he didn't
want to remember. Something about Scorpina... no, that was a different
time.
"Hey, that's okay, man," Zack slapped a reassuring hand on Billy's
shoulder. Remembering what the other said about not "touching Billy,"
he quickly jerked his hand away.
The sudden gesture hadn't gone unnoticed. Billy turned a puzzled--a surprisingly
hurt--eye on Zack.
Zack mentally cursed himself--he should have known better. "Cold?"
he asked, removing his lightweight jacket and placing it around Billy's
shoulders, doing his best to cover his faux-pas.
Billy wasn't stupid--Zack's thoughts were as transparent to him as if they
had been made of glass. He clutched at the jacket around his shoulders
and blinked rapidly. His face flushed momentarily then drained to a past
white. "What did they tell you?" his voice cracked.
An uncomfortable silence descended upon them. Billy began trembling. Horrified,
Zack reached out to grab him--Trini had warned him about Billy's freak
seizures. "Oh god... you're not going to have a seizure on me, are
you?" He was just as surprised as Billy to find he had spoken those
words out loud.
Billy jerked away from Zack. "What did they tell you?" he demanded
again, barely keeping his sobs in check.
Zack knew it was useless to try lying to Billy. Besides, Billy was his
friend and didn't deserve to be lied to--it simply wouldn't be "right."
And Zack suspected Billy already knew the answer anyway. Zack sighed. "They
told me not to upset you... that you didn't like to be touched... that
you didn't like to talk about... well, you know... Guess I screwed things
up pretty bad, didn't I?"
"Oh..." Billy coolly replied, resuming his vacant stare over
the water. He was still trembling slightly. Zack braced himself for the
other shoe to drop.
After passing a few minutes in unbearable silence, Billy spoke again. "Do
you know how long I was there?" His question was more rhetorical that
it was directed at Zack. Still, Zack shook his head "no."
"Four months," Billy could barely speak. He felt as if a band
were tightening around his throat, strangling all the life from him. "Four
months..." he hollowly echoes. Billy suddenly broke down sobbing.
"Oh god," he cried, "four months..." Zack's hand rested
gently on his shoulder.
Billy turned to look at Zack--almost apologetically, for his weakness.
Zack looked back at him with... with sympathy. Sympathy. Not pity. "Do
you want to talk about it?"
The look of absolute shock that crossed Billy's face startled Zack. "Oh
man, what did I do now?" he wondered.
"No one's asked me that before," Billy mumbled. "No one
wants to hear... no one..." Billy stopped, blinking back tears again.
The band around his throat tightened even further.
"Hey... don't even think that," Zack pulled Billy close to him
in a tight embrace, noticing for the first time how small Billy felt in
his arms.
* * *
Billy pulled away from the awkward hold. "Let go of me!" he hissed.
"Stop it!" Finster snarled, readjusting his grip on Billy. He
effortlessly hoisted Billy off the ground and tossed him back into the
cage from which Billy had escaped.
Billy clambered into the corner of the cage and pulled himself into a tight
fetal position. "No more..." he softly whimpered.
Finster felt pity for the boy--the last few days of experiments had been
particularly difficult. But the chance to gather such important data on
the human species was a priceless, once-in-a-lifetime opportunity that
he couldn't pass up.
"Just a few more..." he gently coaxed, reaching through the bars
to grab Billy's wrist. "Just a few more... and we'll be done for the
night..."
"No," Billy cried, attempting to pull his hand away. Finster's
grip was like a vice. No matter how hard Billy twisted and pulled, he couldn't
break free. He watched helplessly as Finster pulled his hand between the
bars--all he had managed to do was further bruise his swollen wrist.
Finster stretched out Billy's fingers and removed a pair of sharp scissors
from his apron.
Billy's eyes widened with horror. "Finster... please..." he stammered,
"what are you doing?... please... stop..."
"Hush," Finster snapped, peering impatiently through his glasses.
He had no time to explain to Billy--he had lost precious time in recapturing
the runaway teen--for the third time today. Scorpina would be by soon,
and Finster had to convince her he had everything under "control"
or else she would report him to Rita and Zedd.
Finster shuddered--he didn't even want to think about what they would do
to Billy. Over the past few weeks he had grown rather attached to the young
man. Despite the awful ordeal he had been through, Billy remained rather
psychologically stable... until recently, and he was remarkably articulate.
Billy had provided Finster with wonderful insight to the human species,
though he was understandably guarded when it came to their weaknesses.
And he became quite flustered whenever the subject of human sexuality came
up--a process that particularly piqued Finster's curiosity, but eluded
Billy's lifetime experience. Monsters, and even he himself, were "created,"
not "born." And there was little to no parenting involved.
Conversely, Finster explained a lot about the life cycles and abilities
of most monsters to Billy--though, he, too, would not discuss the particulars
for their limitations. He was pleased that the teenager was intellectually
curious about their creation and understood--even seemed to appreciate--the
toil and labor involved in each creation--something Zedd and Rita took
no interest in whatsoever.
Billy started trembling, snapping Finster back to the present. He had to
finish this task and get underway on the next one before Scorpina arrived.
He couldn't understand why Billy was so frightened this time--they had
done this before. Perhaps it was because the last time he had accidently
nicked Billy's fingers--Billy's hands were so small compared to his own.
Or maybe it had something to do with electroshock he had administered two
days ago... yes, that was probably it... that was about the time that Billy
began acting bizarrely.
Finster quickly trimmed Billy's nails, being extra careful not to cut his
fingers. "Your other hand," he demanded, dumping the first batch
of nails into an empty test tube.
Leaning forward, Billy apprehensively passed his hand through the bars
and watched Finster trim the fingernails, doing his best not to flinch.
When he had finished, Finster placed the test tube of fingernails in a
rack containing other dry "samples" from Billy--skin scrapings,
blondish locks of hair, and the like. He grabbed a nearby pitcher and poured
a glass of water.
"Here," he said, turning and thrusting the glass through the
bars, "drink this."
Billy clutched the glass and greedily gulped down the water--Finster had
forgotten to give him anything to drink for hours. "Can I have another
glass?" he hoarsely croaked, pushing the glass back through the bars.
Finster's face darkened. "That would not be advisable," he flatly
remarked, quickly turning away.
"Why?" Billy asked, an uneasy feeling descending upon him.
The monster offered no answer.
"Finster...?" Billy warily questioned, rising to his feet. His
world blurred, turned grey for a moment and spun out of control.
"Billy! Please sit back down," Finster pleaded as the boy's knees
buckled and he crashed into the cage bars, "you'll hurt yourself!"
Supporting himself on the crossbars of the cage, Billy looked up imploringly
at Finster. He turned guiltily away and began making preparations for the
next experiment. Finster's image receded, as if Billy were looking through
the wrong end of a telescope. Billy's wrists groaned angrily under his
weight as it became increasingly more difficult to hold himself up. He
closed his eyes, trying to shake the nausea slowly creeping over him.
"Finster... wha... what have you done to me?" he murmured as
he felt himself being lifted out of the cage.
"It's just a mild sedative...."
The voice sounded as if it came from across the room. Too far away...
Billy forced open his heavy eyelids. Scorpina stared back at him.
Billy screamed.
"Shut up!" Scorpina shouted, dropping Billy's dead weight like
a ton of bricks on the lab table and raising her fist to back hand him.
"No!" Finster intervened, clamping one paw over Billy's mouth
while using the other to restrain Scorpina's hand. "We must keep him
calm--and quiet!" he snapped as Scorpina reluctantly dropped her hand.
Finster turned his back on Scorpina and held Billy's face in both of his
paws. "She's not going to hurt you... okay?"
The momentary adrenaline rush having passed, Billy slowly nodded, his ragged
wheezing giving way to lethargic heaving.
"Good." Finster went across the room to finish his preparations.
"Scorpina, prepare the patient."
"Yes, sir," Scorpina's voice was tinged with resentment.
Billy's heart skipped a beat as Scorpina laid her cold hands on him and
rolled him on his side. She seized his battered wrists, causing a yelp
of pain to escape from his lips. Ignoring this, she jerked his hands in
front of him and began forcing them into a pair of restraints strapped
to the side of the table.
"His hands won't fit...." she growled, pulling the leather restraints
tighter, but unable to make the buckle close.
"They'll fit..." Finster absently replied, apparently unconcerned
about Billy's pained whimpering, "His wrists are swollen from pulling
at them earlier, but they'll fit...."
Billy yelped again as the restraints finally snapped into place, pinching
his skin. Scorpina then moved down to the foot of the table, positioned
Billy's legs to ensure he remained on his side, and fastened them down
with a strap that spanned the length of the table. "He's ready,"
she announced, curiously admiring her handiwork. "What's the point
of this experiment?" she asked, trying to conceal her curiosity by
adding an air of contempt to her voice.
"With this sample," Finster began, puttering back to the lab
table, "I'll be able to gain tremendous insight into human neurochemistry...
and even, perhaps, to how the brain and central nervous system operate.
You see...."
"That's all I wanted to know," Scorpina cut him short. She bent
over to peer into Billy's face, a glint of mischief in her eye, which made
Billy involuntarily shudder. "Why don't you just dissect him alive?"
she lolled, "Then all of your questions would be answered at once..."
A contemptuous sneer played across her lips as Billy's eyes widened with
fear when Finster failed to respond.
"Hush," Finster snapped, obviously annoyed. "Quit trying
to scare him--you're not helping."
"I tied him down, didn't I?" Scorpina responded, rising to her
full height and assuming a more threatening posture. "And I haven't
told Lord Zedd and Empress Rita about your little 'guest'--don't forget
that."
Finster snorted, but made no reply.
Billy cringed as a blast of cold air pelted his bare back--Finster had
lifted up his shirt. A sudden, sharp pain exploded in his lower back, then
slowly, agonizingly penetrated deeply, cutting its way to the very depths
of his spine.
Scorpina quickly covered Billy's mouth, stifling any potential scrams.
Tears involuntarily welled up in Billy's eyes, and he began to jerk hard
against the restraints, trying to wrench the needle from his spine.
"Keep him still!" Finster panicked, the needle momentarily slipping
from his grasp.
Scorpina threw her body over Billy's, holding him still by sheer force
of weight. "Are you sure you know what you're doing?" she hissed.
"Hold him still!" Finster repeated, removing one vial from the
end of the tap and snapping another in its place. "Almost done..."
he shakily coaxed, trying to soothe his rattled nerves almost as much as
reassure Billy.
Billy stifled a whimper as Finster slowly withdrew the needle. His legs
twitched nervously as Scorpina loosened the restraints and rolled him on
his back.
"I'll be right back," Finster called over his shoulder, disappearing
into the next room.
"No!" Billy's mind raced furiously, "please don't leave
me here alone with her..."
A grin crept over Scorpina's features as she began fastening a restraint
across his chest.
Billy made a movement as if to run, but realized his legs weren't responding.
"Oh god," he whispered.
Scorpina's face darkened. She drew back from Billy. "Guess I won't
be needing the leg restraints," she sardonically remarked, tossing
a blanket over Billy. She seemed almost... disappointed.
"Your little toy is broken," Scorpina called towards the other
room.
"Wha--?" Finster absently wandered from the adjacent room.
He was answered with a stony silence as Scorpina stalked past him, slamming
the door behind her.
* * *
Zack sucked in his breath. "Billy--" he began, but faltered,
not exactly sure what he wanted to say, "I... well, I..."
"Please don't apologize," Billy waved off Zack's stammering.
"But--"
"Don't."
Zack sat a few moments in silence, racking his brain for something
to say. Billy remained next to him, completely drained both physically
and emotionally. His soft, ragged breathing reached Zack's ears for the
first time since their conversation began. Zack felt a stab at his heart.
It was a painful reminder that Billy was still sick--very sick--and it
was partially his fault. He should have spotted the fake....
"Stop it," Billy peevishly snapped.
"Stop what?" Zack wondered--again--if Billy was really able to
read his thoughts that easily, or if he was just being paranoid.
"Stop staring at me...." Billy trailed off, not caring whether
or not he was being "tactful." Zack noted Billy's face blanch
another degree and his green eyes glass over.
"You look tired," Zack breached, trying not to sound overly concerned.
"I am tired..." Billy sighed.
"It's hard remembering, isn't it?"
"Yes." Billy could barely conceal the tinge of bitterness creeping
into his voice. "But not as hard as--" he choked back the knot
forming in his throat.
"As having been there," Zack finished Billy's thought for him.
"Billy, I don't know what to say... I mean, had it been me... well,
I dunno... I don't think I could have done it."
Billy sleepily blinked a few times. "Done what?"
Zack shifted uneasily. "Well... you know... survived and all..."
Billy's eyes lit up and implored him to elaborate. "I mean... gosh,
I probably would have gotten killed... or I'd have turned myself in...
or something."
Billy shuddered, remembering more than one occasion when he had huddled
in the castle's cold ventilation shafts and accidently overheard Zedd and
Rita making plans for his capture and grisly execution. "Surrendering
wasn't an option--they would have killed me."
"Not if you agreed to work for them."
Billy was genuinely shocked. "Do you think I'd--"
"No!" Zack interrupted, "I didn't mean it that way! But
I think... I think _I_ would have..." he muttered, the blood rising
to his face over this unexpected confession. "It didn't even cross
your mind, did it?"
Billy mutely nodded "no," causing Zack to blush more furiously.
"I don't think you would have, either," Billy placed a hand on
Zack's shoulder and squeezed gently.
Zack smiled weakly, the heat in his face instantly dissipating. "Thanks,
man. That means a lot to me."
Billy slid off the bench, absently tottered a few feet and sat down in
the cool grass. Zack slipped next to him. "Are you feeling okay?"
he asked, placing a hand to Billy's forehead. Billy's skin was cold and
clammy, yet he was sweating. "Maybe we should get you home so you
can rest awhile..."
"No... wait--I want to finish," Billy pleaded, shaking off Zack's
hand.
"Finish? Uh... I think we really should get you--"
"I want to finish," Billy insisted.
"Um... okay... yeah, sure--go ahead and finish your story," Zack
reluctantly conceded. Upsetting Billy would only make matters worse. "So...
how did you escape?"
Clinging to Zack's arm for support, Billy pulled himself closer and smiled
weakly.
"What?" Zack asked, noticing the faint smile. It was probably
the first time anybody had seen Billy smile in days--if not longer.
"Its just..." Billy paused, his mind clouding over momentarily.
Zack slipped an arm around Billy, noticing his friend was becoming more
distant. Not "aloof" distant, but "Tired" distant.
"Just... well, you assumed I escaped," Billy finally continued
his thought, leaning heavily on Zack's supporting arm, "I think the
others... others would have assumed... assumed I was released... not...
not escaped... anyway..."
Zack shook his head sadly as Billy's voice trailed off into barely coherent
muttering, and doubted Billy even realized that Zack had picked him up
and was carrying him to the car.
* * *
Billy groaned slightly as he was unceremoniously dumped back on the cold
lab table. The icy metal nipped at his bare skin, causing convulsive shivering
to rack his near-broken body.
Pulling his arms tighter around his body for warmth, Billy struggled to
pull his knees into a fetal position. Sharp pains cascaded down his back,
ending with a painful, though not entirely unpleasant, tingling in his
calves and feet. Unpleasant had been the numbing lack of response he had
experienced for the last three days. Now it just felt as if his legs were
asleep all of the time.
Finster tucked a blanket around the shivering teen and reached under his
back, adjusting Billy and the table to an upright sitting position. Billy
recoiled violently from Finster's touch. Whether the reaction was prompted
by fear or pain--Billy's back was still a little tender from the spinal
tap--Finster couldn't tell. He tenderly smoothed back Billy's hair--a gesture
of affection he had seen on many TV shows, whose satellite signals he had
intercepted--but rather than reciprocate the gesture, Billy shuddered and
turned his head away.
Sighing heavily, Finster withdrew his paw. Billy had become increasingly
withdrawn. He had flatly refused food and water on several occasions, and
Finster worried that he would have to place Billy on a saline drip to prevent
serious dehydration.
On top of it all, Billy's recovery from the spinal tap was much too slow
and inconsistent. For three days he had not been able to move, and Finster
feared that he might have permanently damaged Billy's spine. Then, earlier
today, Billy had shown some progress. Periods of inactivity were offset
by periods of bizarre hyperactivity. Extreme hypersensitivity, in which
Billy was curled up and doubled over with agonizing pain, interrupted the
"normal" periods during which he felt absolutely nothing. Over
the past twelve hours, the cycles had regulated themselves to a steady
1 1/2 hour schedule. By Finster's calculations, the next cycle would be
starting soon, and he wanted to keep Billy under close observation, in
case Billy required assistance. A few more days, and perhaps Billy's mobility
might be completely restored.
Almost as if on cue, Billy stifled a moan, and with lightning quickness,
retracted into a fetal position, the mobility in his legs apparently no
longer restricted.
"Here, drink this," Finster coaxed, rushing to Billy's side,
attempting to straighten the boy out, and bringing a glass of bluish liquid
to Billy's lips.
Billy pursed his lips and turned his head away.
"Billy, please!" Finster pleaded, "It will help you..."
Billy knocked the glass from Finster's hands. "Like the last time?"
he snapped, "What will you do this time? Lobotomize me with an icepick?
Rip out my heart to see how long it continues beating outside of my body?
Dissect me piece by piece like some sort of machine?? I'm not one of your
monsters, Finster--if you break me, you can't fix me!"
Finster's frustration mounted. He was angry with Billy--never before had
he seen Billy this....stubborn... or upset. But most of all, he was angry
with himself. He felt that he had been doing the procedures for Billy at
first--to find out how Billy "worked" so that he could "fix"
him better. But it got carried away--he did them now for his own scientific
curiosity--and had hurt the boy. "I didn't mean to hurt you--"
"Well, you did," Billy sullenly interrupted. "I trusted
you!!" he suddenly exploded, breaking down into sobs. "You're
just like the others..."
"What others?" Finster asked, trying not to sound like he was
exploiting Billy's vulnerability.
"My friends," Billy continued through his sobs, "I trusted
them, too. And they've left me here to die, haven't they?..."
"No, they haven't," Finster assured. It wasn't a lie--they hadn't
forgotten... really. They just didn't know. Eventually the clone
would make a mistake, and the rangers would come for Billy. It was a dangerous
waiting game--and time was running out for Billy. Even as small as the
boy was, Finster could feel the intense heat rising from his fever-racked
body. He tried to touch Billy, to give reassurance but the boy only flinched
away from his hand. "They'll come..."
"Finster!!!" The shriek seemed to pierce through every room in
the castle. Billy tensed, listening to the quickly approaching footsteps
that reverberated in the hallway just outside the lab. "Finster! Where
are you?!?"
"Shh!" Finster ordered, quickly bundling Billy in the blanket.
He scooped up the teenager and carried him to the closet. "Quickly,
we must hide you before she gets here," he whispered, setting Billy
on the floor of the closet and throwing another blanket over him. "Don't
make a sound," he softly reminded Billy as he closed the door.
Finster hadn't managed to fully close the closet when the lab door blew
open and Rita stormed in. Billy shrank under his blankets, trying to make
himself as obscure as possible.
"Finster! Where the hell have you been?!" Rita barked.
Assuming a more humble posture, Finster grasped for an explanation. "Well..."
"Nevermind!" she snapped, "I don't want to hear your pathetic
excuses--you were supposed to be upstairs 15 minutes ago. Now get!"
she ordered, shoving Finster towards the door. "I need to get that
brat back to Earth before she's missed."
"Just a minute," Finster stalled, hoping to make is way back
to the closet so he could lock it.
"Now! Go!" Rita screamed, pushing Finster out the door and slamming
it shut behind her.
Billy shakily exhaled the breath he had been holding and pulled a blanket
tightly around him in an attempt to control his trembling. He silently
crept from his hiding place, his eyes darting nervously around the room,
like a hunted animal.
His legs twinging slightly, Billy collapsed against Finster's workstation
to rest.
Scattered around the table were various "samples" Finster had
collected from Billy. Billy shook his head in disgust--it was a sloppy
area at best--made his own lab seem immaculate. Several blood samples were
spoiling from being left out too long. In the center of the workbench was
a large book. Billy carefully slid along the table, using it to support
himself as his weakened legs continued to slowly buckle under his weight.
When he finally reached the book, Billy cautiously thumbed through it,
so as not to disturb the loose sheets that had apparently been shoved in
as an afterthought. It was the book chronicling Finster's experiments and
observations of Billy, handwritten in sloppy, scratchy English. Apparently,
Finster was trying to read and write English in an attempt to "encode"
his work. Billy flipped to the beginning of the book and read:
--Subject brought in by several monsters. Apparent head trauma--bleeding
from he ear, fading in and out of consciousness... --
Billy sighed and flipped ahead--he didn't remember being brought in, and
he wasn't so sure he wanted to. His eyes came to rest on a page written
only two days prior:
--Still difficult to assess damage of failed spinal tap. Subject uncooperative
at best, unresponsive at worst. Refuses to answer basic questions, perform
basic functions. Considering injection of thorozine, to get him to be more
cooperative--
Trembling, Billy turned the page to read on. The previous entry broke off--no
more about a thorozine injection, for which Billy was thankful--and picked
up with yesterday's entry:
--Scorpina becoming more insistent about turning Billy over to her. He
wouldn't survive in her care--even if she didn't' kill him outright, he'd
succumb to the various effects and illnesses resulting from her previous
"care."
The fever persists--even after weeks of treatment. The complications from
the spinal tap are still difficult to assess, though Billy seems to be
showing some signs of pain--an indication that the damage may not be permanent.
Other damage may be permanent--most notably slight brain damage from numerous
concussions and a minor skull fracture (probably the result of Scorpina's
beatings or the other monsters "playing" with the boy), and epidermal
scarring from various deep welts and lacerations.
Still, I cannot keep him. Even if he wasn't painfully executed by Scorpina
and/or Rita and Zedd, I lack the facilities to "fix" him and
send him home. He will die if not sent back to Earth soon. As much as the
potential to observe the death process and perform a human autopsy fascinates
me, I do not wish to watch the boy suffer. Researching lethal injections...
--
Billy's vision dimmed and he clutched the counter for support. Tears welled
in his eyes--Finster was going to execute him. Whether out of scientific
curiosity or some warped altruistic sense of "relieving his suffering,"
the result would still be the same--he'd be dead.
"He's going to kill me..." Billy muttered softly. A sheen of
sweat dotted his forehead, and, for a moment, he felt himself start to
black out. His hands clenched the book. "No," he told himself,
"I'm not gonna die like a lab rat." The distance to the lower
caverns seemed huge--insurmountable--but it was better, his battered mind
said quietly, to go out fighting.
* * *
Upon returning from his "meeting" with Rita, Finster expected
to find the worst. A quick inventory of the lab revealed that Billy had
indeed fled, and had taken a blanket and a water bottle with him.
Finster sighed and leaned against his workbench, wondering what could have
prompted the boy to flee, when he felt they were making so much progress.
His hands lightly skimmed his book as he shifted his weight, and he turned
his full attention to it, realizing he needed to log these latest developments.
The book was open to yesterday's entry. Funny, he didn't remember leaving
it open... Billy must have been reading it... and, from what Finster could
tell, had stopped at the part touching upon the lethal injection...
"Damn!" Finster spat, slamming the book shut and throwing it
to the floor. Those random observations and musings had obviously frightened
the boy into running. If it had that sort of effect on Billy, he could
just imagine the sort of traitorous behavior someone as weak minded as
Rita would read into it. The log would have to be destroyed.
Curious chatter captured Finster's attention and he suddenly realized he
had left his newest charge standing outside. "Shoo!" he barked
at the monsters, rushing to the door and waving them away. "Come in,"
he ordered the entranced girl, herding her into the room and shutting the
door behind them.
This girl was Rita's latest attempt to undermine the Rangers. According
to what Rita told Finster, this young lady was to infiltrate their ranks
and destroy them from the inside. Apparently she had forgotten that she
already had someone to do that--he was just waiting on his orders.
Finster was to place a spell on this young lady to allow her to transform
into a cat at will so she could slip amongst the Rangers without any suspicion
being cast.
Cat--a humorous pun on the girl's name, Kat. Finster studied the fair creature
curiously--she was rather tall and slender. and pretty--for a human.
"Sit," Finster barked at her, setting up for the task at hand.
Kat hesitated. For a brief moment her vapid blue eyes flickered with a
gleam of... stubbornness? Self-awareness?... before sitting on the table
previously occupied by Billy only hours earlier.
Finster snickered. Just like all of Rita's plans, this one was destined
to fail. Kat was already starting to fight the spell. A truly good heart
could never be fully corrupted--Rita should have learned that with Tommy,
and chosen her newest "candidate" more wisely.
Knowing Rita's luck, Finster mused, Kat will end up becoming
good friends with the Rangers. Who knows... somewhere down the line, she
may even BECOME a Ranger.
A sudden inspiration hit Finster. He scooted a stool over to the table
and sat down facing Kat. He knew a little magic... this might work...
"Look at me," he snapped his fingers in front of her face a few
times to draw her attention. When she turned her vacant stare upon him,
he waved a paw over her face, easing the grip Rita's spell had on her.
A glimmer of consciousness shone behind the girl's eyes.
"Good," Finster muttered, "Now... I want to tell you a story,
but you must keep it locked in the back of your mind until the time is
right. Understand?"
Kat slowly nodded "yes."
"Good..." Finster continued, "It's about a boy you will
meet--a young man named Billy..."
* * *
"Grampa, I don't know what to do." Zack toyed with his dinner.
His grandparents looked at each other, not sure if they knew how to help.
"Did you try talking to your other friends?" Claire Taylor knew
that Zack's friends were closeknit. "Maybe your friend Billy has just
misunderstood. He has been under a lot of stress, you know."
Zack shook his head. "I kinda thought of that, but I think he's right.
Most of them just can't deal with it. I thought Adam was actually going
to cry." He didn't mention that Trini had cried, or that Aisha
had completely clammed up. "Tommy and Jason are at each others throats.
It's splitting everyone apart and that's the last thing Billy needs...
I think."
Cliff Taylor hummphed. "Sounds like your friend needs to get away
and relax. He needs time, Zack. Between your friends bickering, his father's
concern and the fact that he has been through a nightmare I can't even
imagine... you're lucky you aren't visiting him in the looney bin, you
know."
"Cliff..." Claire's voice had a hint of warning to it.
"The boy knows what I'm talking about." Cliff tipped his cigar
towards Zack. "Your friend... we're talking about the shy one, aren't
we? He was high strung to start with. You can be damn certain being tortured
for months didn't help." Cliff saw his grandson cringe at the word
torture. "Well, he was Zack. Damn near killed him. Hell... its almost
too bad the kid didn't loose it. People would be a helluva lot easier on
him."
"Gramps..." Zack hesitated.
"You want to help your friend." Cliff puffed his cigar. "He
needs to relax... Take him fishing..."
"Fishing?" Zack didn't quite know what to say. "Grampa...
Billy doesn't even like fish... he has this thing..."
"He don't gotta eat the damn things... doesn't even need to catch
any... its the act..." Cliff set down his cigar. "Take your friend
up to the summer house for a few weeks."
"The summer house? Just the two of us?" Zack considered. No one
had headed up to the summer house in ages. It was a big two story log cabin
more suited to hunting parties than the occasional family vacation. Zack
couldn't picture Billy and him rattling around up there.
"Why not ask a few of your other friends too?" Claire said. "I
think a few more people is a good idea. Just in case..."
* * *
"Sure Zack." Kat smiled brilliantly. "That sounds like fun."
She took in Zack's sudden elation and sighed. "Not getting many takers,
are you?"
Zack sighed. "I think some people need a break too. I mean..."
"Everyone has been under a lot of stress." Kat nodded. "I
think its easier for you and I to see it. I just hadn't been able to figure
out what to do. Its a good idea..."
"What? What's a good idea?" Rocky pulled up a chair.
"Zack and I are going to take Billy camping... up at Zack's summer
place." Kat hesitated. Rocky had been notoriously silent about the
entire mess. "Do you want to come with us? It's kind of a getaway."
Rocky frowned. Then, surprisingly, he said. "That's a good idea...
I... I haven't really been able to talk with Billy.... He's been kinda...
distant... I've been distant too..." Then he added, "I don't
know though.... What about Billy's dad?"
* * *
"Absolutely not!" Ward couldn't believe what he was hearing.
"It doesn't surprise me that his friends come up with nonsense like
this...." Ward shook his fist at Cliff Taylor. "Dammit, Cliff...
he's sick. The doctors aren't even sure whats wrong... They keep telling
me he's not thriving... that he should be doing better. I don't know what
to do. What if he had another seizure up there? Or.. or worse..."
Cliff was suddenly glad Zack had taken his frail looking friend to a movie.
It was exactly the sort of situation that was likely not helping the kid's
stress levels. "What if he does? There's a phone... Ward, look at
yourself. You haven't left that boy alone for over a month. You need the
break, and I'm willing to bet your boy does too.... He won't be left alone.
Someone will have an eye on him. Admit it, you need the time too."
"I just...." Ward sat down heavily. "I feel like everytime
I let him leave, it might... be the last time. " He sighed heavily.
"This is my fault..."
"Are you going to chain him up in this house for the rest of his life?"
Cliff asked harshly. "At least think about it..."
* * *
"I can't believe my dad agreed to this." Billy pulled on his
jacket and sunglasses. "How long will it take to get there?"
"About six hours." Zack piled another box of supplies into the
trunk. Kat and Rocky gave him a hand. Billy grabbed a box and stifled the
sudden heavy breathing the exertion brought on.
"Okay..." Kat took the box, thankful that Billy hadn't picked
up one of the heavy boxes. She didn't think he could lift one. Kat had,
until Zack had arrived, been trying to stay back in the shadows as far
as Billy's recovery went. Oh, sure she had visited Billy in the hospital.
She liked him. He had a shy, quiet way about him that made her feel comfortable.
She simply didn't want to put any pressure on him. But considering the
way things had gone, she figured now it was her turn to try and fix everything.
Or, she thought as Billy took the front passenger seat, at least help Billy.
* * *
Rocky glanced at Billy while he drove. Billy had curled up on the front
seat after the first hour, and was sleeping so soundly that he hadn't even
twitched when Kat had thrown her jacket over him. "He's dead out."
"Pull in at that truck stop." Zack commanded. "We need food."
"No arguing from me there." Rocky was starving. Trucks stops
were a definite choice place to eat too. Zack reached over and shook Billy.
"Hey man..."
Billy bolted upright. "What?!" Rocky slammed the car into a parking
spot. Billy slowly got his bearings. "Oh... are we there?"
"No." Rocky's hands were shaking. "We're..."
"Just stopping to get something to eat." Kat said brightly. She
got out of the car. "Come on guys." The only way both Rocky and
Billy were ever going to feel comfortable was if they didn't make a big
deal about things. And, Kat mused with a grin, hopefully it won't involve
a car accident.
"This place has awesome food." Zack as they entered the diner.
He ushered then to a corner booth. "My folks would always stop here
on the way. The pie is to die for."
"Cherry pie?" Billy asked hopefully as he took a seat.
"Banana cream pie?" asked Rocky.
"We have pie for everyone's taste." Their waitress slapped down
menus. "But try having lunch first... we do that pretty well too."
The older woman trotted off.
"Food..." Rocky regained his good cheer. "Oh man... fried
chicken and mashed potatoes..." He nudged Billy playfully. "Sounds
good... I might have two orders."
"Yeah.." Billy was a little awed by the menu. "Guys... this
is sad... This is the first place I've been other than the Juice Bar in...
five months...."
There was a moment of uncomfortable silence. Then, "Billy, you need
to get out more," just popped out of Zack's mouth. Billy burst into
laughter and seconds later so did the others. Zack was beginning to think
his grandfather was right. Billy just needed to get away.
* * *
Rocky spied Billy walk out onto the wooden dock. He smiled and swam over.
Billy was in shorts and a T-shirt, an indicator of just how hot it was.
Rocky had taken to the water to escape the unseasonably warm weather. It
was summer, sure, but the 100 degree heat had everyone panting. If Billy,
constantly cold, had forsaken heavy clothing, then it was just too hot.
Or, perhaps Billy was feeling better. Rocky couldn't quite believe the
change in his friend. At first, Billy had been obviously nervous and tense.
Slowly though, Billy had seemed to unwind. It wasn't unusual to see him
smile. Rocky even thought he'd put on some weight. God knows they were
going through enough food. Another good sign though. Rocky had worried
at first. Billy had at first, been mostly picking at meals, but the last
few days had done something.... Billy was actually coming close to rivalling
him at putting away the food. No mean feat.
"Kat is making chili for dinner." Billy said as he sat down at
the edge of the dock. "And Zack wants to have a another Monopoly tournament
tonight."
"Another?" Rocky chuckled. He laid back in the water.
"Well..." Billy smiled easily. "I think tomorrow we'll head
into town and rent some new movies..." He dangled his feet into the
water.
"Why don't you jump in?" Rocky encouraged. Billy was sweating.
"It's got to be over 100 today."
"106, actually." Billy said. "I don't have a suit...."
"Come on. Just jump in." Rocky said playfully. "Heck, don't
even take your shirt off..." It occurred to Rocky that Billy had never
really been cool about strutting around shirtless. "The water's great."
Billy peered into the water. "There's fish in the water..."
"And sea weed, and rocks." Rocky paddled back and forth. "The
fish don't bite."
"I don't really know how to swim." Billy blushed. "And...
I don't like fish..."
"You can stand here." Rocky demonstrated. Faintly, Rocky recalled
Zack saying something about Billy being a little phobic about fish. Hesitantly,
Billy stepped down the dock ladder into the water.
"This is.... different..." Billy never really liked the water.
It was up around his chest and he was nervous. Something touched his toes
and he jumped. "What was that?"
"Don't worry..." Rocky swished the water around, hoping Billy
hadn't noticed the minnows. "It's just fish..."
"Fish? Here?" Billy backed up until he was up against the dock.
"Maybe I'll just get out...."
Rocky chuckled. "Billy... I just do not believe you. Are you really
thinking that the lake fish are gonna eat you?"
"It's not funny."
Billy, Rocky suddenly realized, was deadly serious. A shadow moved across
the water.
"Oh god! What was that?" Billy jumped so high that Rocky caught
him on the way down.
Rocky started laughing. "A minnow!" he snickered, "You know,
a 'little fishie.'"
Billy flushed. "Its not funny," he muttered kicking himself free
of Rocky's arms.
"Oh yes it was," Rocky snorted between fits of hysterical laughter.
"You should have seen your face!" His face turned bright red
and tears began streaming down his face. "Definitely a Kodak moment."
Billy impatiently waited for Rocky's laughter to die down.
"What's that??" Rocky suddenly screamed, pointing into the water.
"WHAT?!" Billy shrieked, bending over and looking apprehensively
into the water where Rocky was pointing.
"Oh no, Billy, its another fishie!" Rocky exclaimed, slapping
his hand on the water and splashing Billy in the face. His hysterical fit
of laughter resumed.
"You're so funny," Billy sardonically remarked, splashing Rocky
back.
Rocky dodged the splash. "And I'm a better shot too," he retorted,
splashing Billy in the face again.
"Ow!" Billy doubled over, grabbing his eye. "My contacts!"
Rocky stopped laughing. "Oh man... I'm sorry, Billy" he apologized
as he waded over to where Billy stood. "Hey, are you okay?" he
asked, placing a hand on Billy's shoulder.
"Yeah," Billy replied, slapping an hand over Rocky's, "'cause
I'm the better actor!" He used Rocky's outstretched arm as a lever
to toss him into the water and pushed Rocky's head under, just to make
sure he got nice and wet.
"Hey!" Rocky sputtered, re-emerging. Billy had already started
clumsily swimming away. "I'm not finished with you yet, Billy!"
he shouted, taking off after him.
Rocky easily overtook Billy in a few easy strokes. "You're going down,
man!" he said, grabbing the back of Billy's shirt and jerking him
backwards.
"No! Wait!" Billy began. He never had a chance to finish--Rocky
mercilessly pushed him under.
"Oops, too late," Rocky smirked.
But Billy didn't come up. "Billy?" Rocky called. "Billy?"
he repeated, peering nervously into the murky water.
Suddenly something grabbed his feet. Rocky thrashed his arms about, managing
to keep himself afloat as Billy popped up, holding his feet.
"I think its your turn," Billy sneered, positioning his hand
on Rocky's head.
As Billy pushed, Rocky reached out and grabbed the front of Billy's shirt.
"Oh no, its your turn--really, I insist!"
Rocky jerked hard on Billy's shirt as he went under. He heard something
rip. Billy staggered backwards, clutching the bare spot on his chest where
Rocky had ripped his shirt.
He couldn't help but stare at the huge gashes that crisscrossed Billy's
chest. Some were completely healed, leaving a trail of puckered pink scarred
skin while others were still scabbed over. Rocky shuddered, imagining how
painful they must have been... must still be.
Billy shifted uncomfortably under Rocky's stare. He could feel his whole
body flushing with embarrassment, and his lip began trembling. Don't...
don't get upset.... he ordered himself.
Aware that his staring was making Billy uncomfortable, Rocky lowered his
eyes to the sopping blue material in his hand. "Um... here..."
he muttered, thrusting the cloth towards Billy, "sorry..."
Billy snatched the cloth from Rocky's hand. "S'okay," he muttered
through gritted teeth, turning his back on Rocky.
Something needed to be said. Rocky felt it in his gut. "Jeez... Billy...
why didn't you say something? That's..." he sighed, "I'm... I'm
really sorry about... well, you know... leaving you there and all..."
"I said it was okay!" Billy snapped.
"No it's not!" Rocky spat back. "For god's sake Billy, you
have a right to be mad, you know!" He felt Billy wasn't really listening
to him. Rocky grabbed Billy's shoulders and swung him around to face him.
"Look at me!" he ordered. "Damnit, Billy! We left you there
for months. You have every right to be mad at us! Do you think you're
sparing us any discomfort by not being angry? Do you?" he shook Billy
for added emphasis. "You have to face it! We left you there to
die!"
"Stop it!! Let go of me!!" Billy shrieked, hurling a fist at
Rocky. Through his tears he could see his fist make contact with Rocky's
jaw and blood spurt from the lip. Somehow, that only enraged him more and
he continued to pummel Rocky. "There! You like that? That's what I
get to face. That what every day there was like only multiply it a thousand
times over! I'm going to be facing it for the rest of my life and
all you can say is 'I'm sorry.' Well, it doesn't cut it! It's not going
to cut it so just shut up!" With that Billy punched Rocky one
last time and flung himself off into the water and swam to the dock.
Rocky stood numbly in the water and wiped the blood off his face. Billy
had gotten lucky on his first punch, and the rest had barely stung....
Rocky had a feeling he was getting off lucky. He paddled over to the dock
and got out of the water, very conscious of the fact that Billy was watching
him from the water. He held out a hand to Billy. After a moment, Billy
accepted it and Rocky gave him a quick pull up.
"You okay?" he asked. He deserved everything that Billy had said,
but Billy was looking a little pale.
"No... yeah..." Billy sighed and crossed his arms over his chest.
Rocky threw a large towel over him . "Thanks." He smiled shyly.
"No problem." Rocky suddenly felt a weight lift off of him and
he smiled in return.
* * *
Kat's slender fingers pulled back the gauzy kitchen curtains, allowing
her to peer out the window. She smiled slightly to herself as she watched
the guys playing touch football outside.
After five minutes, she gave up trying to figure out who was on whose team.
Apparently, the guys didn't know either--sometimes Rocky would toss the
ball to Zack, other times, he'd be trying to take Zack down. Kat was surprised
by how fast Billy could move--he was difficult to catch and easily overtook
Rocky, whom Kat considered a very fast runner.
Most of their time, however, was spent retrieving wild balls. Kat couldn't
help but laugh out loud as the ball bounced off Rocky's head--Billy may
have been a good runner, but he was a lousy toss.
The... game?... came to an end a short time later when one of Zack's wild
balls firmly planted itself in a tree. The guys stood under it a few seconds
looking stupidly at the ball, as if that would make it come down. Zack
made a running leap at the offending branch, completely missed, and landed
hard on his rear. Billy and Rocky burst out in hysterical laughter and
took off running once Zack regained his feet. Zack trotted off after them
into the woods, shouting some sort of vague, testosterone-inspired threat
that Kat couldn't make out through the thick glass pane.
Turning from the window, Kat padded over the stove where last night's leftover
chili simmered. She jabbed a spoon into the thick chili, stirring the mixture
of tomato, beef and beans. Spicy hot steam wafted up to her face, burning
her nose with pungent odor. She gingerly raised the spoon to her lips,
blowing softly on the spoon before sliding it into her mouth.
"Ouch!" she hissed, quickly retracting the spoon. Too hot. And
maybe a bit too spicy--considering how Billy was kind of sensitive to the
spice last night. But, of course, Kat reasoned, such opinions should only
be formed after a second sampling.
Kat brought the spoon to her lips a second time, turning away from the
hot stove. Someone was standing in the doorframe. Startled, she screamed,
sending the spoon clattering to the floor.
"Kat!... Oh geez... Kat... I'm sorry..." Billy stammered, rushing
forward and falling to his knees to help clean up the mess on the floor.
"I... I didn't mean to scare you..."
"It's okay..." Kat sighed in relief, reaching behind her to grab
a towel. She kneeled next to Billy, who was scraping up the spilled chili
with his hands. "Here... let me get that," she smiled, taking
his hand in her own and wiping it clean.
Billy blushed, self-consciously jerking his hand away.
Kat felt the blood rise to her cheeks as well. How sweet... she
thought, I wonder if he was always this flustered around girls...
His clone hadn't been--yet another thing that should have tipped off the
rangers that "Billy" wasn't Billy.
Well, no point in pointing fingers now... enough people were doing that.
"Are you guys done with your game?"
"For now..." Billy said softly. "Um... Kat....um...."
He'd wanted to talk to Kat for a while but somehow he never could corner
her.
"Yo Billy!" Zack bounced in. "Wanna take the rowboat out
with me?"
"Um..." Kat felt the odd moment fizzle. Billy had been about
to say something, she knew, but...
"Yeah... sure...." Billy blushed again and left. Zack simply
blinked in surprise. He had interrupted something but it was too late now.
* * *
He heard the footsteps of someone walking down the path to the dock. Looking
through the trees, he spotted Kat's blonde hair. He sighed and continued
dangling his bare feet in the cool water. The footsteps thumped out onto
the dock, much as he had suspected they would.
"Hey Billy." Kat gracefully sat down next to him. "The monopoly
tournament will be starting soon."
"We need to find another game." Billy chuckled.
"Well... we have a few minutes..." Kat actually had told Zack
and Rocky to give her some time. She had a feeling Billy wanted to talk.
"Yeah..." Billy hesitated. He wanted to talk but the attempt
he'd made earlier in the evening still made him cringe. And Kat was so...
sophisticated to begin with. No doubt she thought he was clutzy nervous
wreck. "It's nice out tonight...."
"I know... it's always at night when I get homesick." Kat felt
a sudden tug of loneliness as she spoke. "I look up... and the constellations
are all wrong... and I keep thinking its just not the same." She blushed.
"That sounds so silly..."
"No, that's not silly." Billy said softly. "Being lonely
can... can be overpowering..."
"Was it really bad?" Kat asked gently.
After a moment, Billy nodded. "When I saw you... you don't realize...."
"Realize what?" Kat sensed she was very close to the subject
that Billy had tried to broach earlier.
"It..." He took a deep breath. "You saved my life... I was...
It was over. I couldn't go on... I was heading down into the lower chambers....
and I was going to die. I'd given up."
"Really?" Kat was surprised. "You mean... suicide?"
He paled suddenly. "No... not like that. You don't understand..."
His hands clenched the dock. "I just couldn't go on... I could take
the beatings and never getting enough rest or food... I could even make
myself think that there was a rescue coming. I just couldn't... she knew....
she'd found the one thing left to hurt me with and I... I couldn't let
that happen." He hesitated, his face getting even redder. "There's
a point where... things go too far... and you can't let it go any further."
As he spoke, the clouds that had been threatening all afternoon began to
rain softly on the two teens. Billy sighed.
"Are you okay?" Kat asked. She rather liked the feel of the rain.
It was soft and gentle, more a light misting than anything else. If Billy
was upset by it though....
"Yes... no..." Billy pulled his feet out of the water. "It
just.. reminds me... only a little... of that last time with Scorpina..."
* * *
Billy shuddered--he was dripping wet. He crouched low against the wall
-- another dead end. he prayed she'd just go away.
Another freezing blast of pressurized water hit him against the back and
knocked him to the floor. Billy sputtered and gasped for air against the
onslaught.
"Want another drink, Blue Ranger?" Scorpina hissed, momentarily
shutting off the hose.
Billy struggled to regain his feet and his breath when Scorpina turned
the hose on him again. The column of water hit him in the center of the
chest, and he was thrown against the wall. His head knocked hard against
the wall. As he slid to the floor, a sharp pain shot through his head and
darkness began to enclose him.
Throwing the hose aside, Scorpina strolled over to Billy and easily pushed
him over onto his back. Billy moaned slightly, but stifled it as best as
he could. He did not want to give her the satisfaction of crying out in
pain.
Scorpina loomed over him a minute, then straddled his body and dropped
to her knees. As her weight crashed down upon him, Billy unsuccessfully
tried suppressing a gasp. He groaned as she slid herself to a comfortable
position just above his hips and feebly tried pushing her away.
She laughed maliciously. "I thought you were dead. You surprise me...."
Billy could tell that she knew he was too frail to fight her off. She easily
swept his hands aside with one stroke. Billy cried out in pain as his hands
slammed painfully onto the cold, hard floor above his head. Her lips spread
into a smile as she heard it. No more whimpering... the actual cry...
"But you're not dead, are you, Billy?" she malevolently breathed
into his ear, "At least, not to me... but to them..." She knew
their last meeting was still fresh in his mind and glowered with gratification
at seeing Billy's ill-concealed grief.
Scorpina slid further down his hips and leaned over him Oh God...
Billy thought, trying his hardest to hold back sobs, she's gonna rape
me... oh God... please help me... don't let this happen....
She bent over and placed her ear against Billy's chest, grinning with
satisfaction as she heard his rapid heartbeat and shallow breathing. It
was working. She took her free hand and lightly ran her fingernails up
and down Billy's side, listening intently as his heart skipped a beat and
began to race even faster. She slid her hand under the shreds of Billy's
sopping shirt and traced a few of the more recent slashes along his stomach,
digging her nails into one to draw fresh blood. Billy's shallow breathing
gave way to silent spasmodic whimpers.
Billy blinked back tears as Scorpina shifter her weight again and sat back
up. He struggled under her. "Quit struggling, brat!" she spat,
slapping him across the face.
The slap did it... the tears began to flow freely now. "What's the
matter, Billy?" she spitefully purred, "don't you humans like
this sort of thing? Don't all young boys enjoy sex?" She stroked his
soggy, grimy hair and ran her fingernails lightly down his face. "I'm
the only one who loves you, you know... Isn't this how you humans show
your love for each other?" Her pleasure heightened as each calculated
word seemed to wound Billy in a way in which even beating him within an
inch of his life never seemed to achieve. She could see the fire in his
eyes dying, replaced with the dawning hollowness of a broken spirit. "You
should love me too... After all, I'm all you have left. Show me how much
you love me, Billy..."
Billy shook violently with sobs. "Please, Scorpina... no..."
he weakly begged, feeling her lightly stroke his chest.
Scorpina reached under his head, seized his wet hair and violently jerked
his head back. Billy shrieked for a moment but was silenced as she pressed
her lips hard against his.
Billy struggled to close his mouth and force her away, but his efforts
just encouraged Scorpina further. He convulsively coughed and gagged as
she pressed herself harder against him. As she pulled away, she bit his
lip hard, obviously relishing the taste of his blood in her mouth.
She let go of his hands and forcefully pushed off him.
Billy rolled over onto his side and curled up into a tight fetal position.
He whole body shook violently with the force of his sobbing.
Scorpina stood nearby, watching him with perverse fascination. She pulled
out her whip and let the lash fall once across his back, smiling viciously
as Billy shrieked and convulsively shuddered.
Billy's shaking intensified and became more jerky. He felt an agonizing,
cramping pain cascade through him, tensing his muscles to the point where
he felt they would snap. It ceased momentarily, then started up again with
a vengeance. His throat tightened, causing him to choke on his own sobs
and faltering screams. Then it abruptly stopped.
Scorpina had never seen that happen before. She leaned over and peered
into his face. His face was smudged and streaked with tears. But he was
no longer crying.
Billy stared vacantly back at her, unable to move. He felt as if his body
were no longer his own--he was mentally commanding it to get up and run
but was only answered with spasmodic, painful twitching. He watched as
she nudged him with her hand, obviously hoping to provoke some reaction.
Nothing. Billy didn't even feel the touch.
Scanning him for life signs, Scorpina put a hand to his chest. Billy mentally
winced seeing her hand so close to his body. Her hand rose and fell in
sync with his slow, shallow breathing.
Scorpina carelessly picket up the drenched waif and tucked him under her
arm like a rag doll. The swaying sent Billy's head reeling again. She would
probably take him to Finster.
* * *
Billy closed his eyes and let the water drip off of him into the lake.
He wasn't sure which hurt more--the actual pain he had felt at the time
or the ache he was feeling now as it all came rushing back to him. "She
was just put off by... by that seizure... she didn't understand..."
He took a shuddering breath. "The next time... I couldn't let it happen."
Kat drew him into a hug, not saying a word. She didn't think she could
say anything without crying herself. Finally she said, "I'm sorry...
I wish we'd gotten there sooner. No one should have to have that happen."
Billy pulled away but after a moment, he smiled. "Thank you Kat."
"For what?"
"Just... thank you."
* * *
Rocky deftly flipped the flapjack. He smiled and piled it onto the huge
stack. Breakfast was, in his opinion, best served in large amounts. Along
with the mountain of flapjacks, he had made sausage and bacon for a side
dish. He debated on frying up some eggs and then decided to wait. It was
possible that all the food would be enough.
"Rocky?" Kat looked at the pile of food Rocky had prepared. "Who
do you think will eat that?" Kat was simply not a breakfast person.
"Zack went into town for supplies and Billy's not up."
"Not up?" Rocky's brow creased with worry. "You know...
the last couple days, all he's really done is sleep. And eat... but not
as much... Do you think he's okay?"
Kat hesitated. She had not shared what Billy had told her. It wasn't that
he asked her not too, he hadn't. He hadn't said much of anything. Kat somehow
sensed that she'd been entrusted with a secret, perhaps as a test. A test
she fully expected to pass. She had a feeling that he would, at some future
time, tell the other Rangers what had happened. The first time was the
hardest, and she figured that a lot of why Billy was sleeping all the time
was the inevitable emotional crash from baring his soul.
"I think he's okay, Rocky," she said finally. "Just worn
out. You and Zack have been keeping him pretty busy. And.... he's been
going through some... stuff."
"Stuff?" Rocky looked at his mountainous breakfast and frowned.
"Personal stuff." Kat piled some food on her plate and took a
seat.
"I think I know what you mean." Rocky took a seat. "So...
what do we do? Just be cool?" It sounded like a plan to him. Billy
was doing okay.... if he needed to sleep and maybe just hang around, then
that's what Rocky wanted him to do.
"That'll work." As Kat spoke, the door to the porch slammed and
many feet pounded across the wooden floor. Zack bounced in, followed by
all of the rangers.
"Hey! Look who I found!"
* * *
Billy sighed. The place was teeming with his friends. Even Aisha had decided
to come up for a few days, though her cast kept her confined to the cabin.
Cabin was a misleading word, Billy thought as he walked out onto the wide
covered porch. It was made of logs, true, but the Taylor family summer
cabin was larger than Billy's home. The place was centered around a large
open living room/dining room combo with a huge stone fireplace. Almost
every night the last two weeks, a cheery fire was lit and they had played
cheesy board games on the old latch rug. Most of the bedrooms were loft
type rooms, opening off the stairwell to the second floor. There were a
few bedrooms on the first floor, more nicely furnished, and Rocky, Zack,
Kat and he had grabbed those when they first arrived. The place was huge.
With ten people though, it got pretty noisy and hectic. He missed the quiet.
The thumping sound of crutches reached his ears. "Aisha."
"How'd you know it was me?" She limped over to where he was standing
and smiled at him. "You look tons better. I was worried about you.
Now I wish I'd come along. Maybe I'd be looking as good."
"Oh, you're just being nice." he scoffed gently. "Besides,
you don't look half bad."
Aisha was taken back for a moment by his words. Billy had never been one
to kid like that. "Well, I try." She took a seat on one of the
wicker chairs. "You do look better. You seemed so nervous before...
Getting away has been good for you."
Billy leaned up against the porch railing. He gave Aisha a smile, a smile
so open and genuine, Aisha felt her heart melt a little. She had missed
Billy, more than she knew. The odd coldness of the clone was something
that had worried her for a while but she had said nothing, figuring that
Billy was just upset.Then, the clone was discovered and Aisha had felt
like hell. She had felt even worse when she'd seen how slowly Billy was
recovering. She smiled back, feeling suddenly at ease. "I missed you
Billy."
"Same here." Billy said it easily. Aisha's openness and his own
newfound calmness made talking with her somehow... nice. "How's your
leg?"
"I get the cast off next week." Aisha started as a sudden flash
of lightening illuminated the dimming porch. The heavy scent of rain blew
in with the breeze. "Looks like it's gonna storm tonight."
* * *
Dinner was surprisingly calm. Trini had worried about the whole idea of
bringing everyone up. As much as she had wanted to come along, she had
turned down Zack's invitation to spend a few weeks up at the cabin with
Billy. She didn't think it would be a good idea for her. Sure, she and
Billy were close friends, but they had been spending so much time together...
and Billy was so emotionally needy. There was only so much she could take.
It had gotten to the point where she'd started to feel like she'd been
appointed as Billy's surrogate mommy. It wasn't healthy for either of them.
There was such a thing as spending too much time together.
And her reasoning seemed to be right. Billy seemed... not exactly his old
self, but better. Trini didn't hold out much hope that her often naive
and gentle friend of old would ever really be back. It saddened her, not
that she hadn't thought it would happen eventually anyway, but it still
hurt. Her mother had warned her once that a person can't innocent forever.
Trini simply wished Billy hadn't found out that truth in such a hard fashion.
"It's storming pretty bad." Adam said softly as she walked by.
Adam was, Trini thought to herself, surprisingly closed off. She hadn't
known him that well before but to her, he seemed almost afraid of trying
to deal with the situation. Billy had given up even trying to talk to him
and in fact, Adam had spent most of the day looking through old magazines.
That was, to Trini, preferable to how Jason and Tommy were glaring at each
other. Everyone was dancing around them and Trini had a bad feeling that
it was going to erupt into an argument.
Jason and Tommy shouldn't have come up at all, in her opinion. They both
needed to sit down and work out their problems. They needed to do it before
they spent time with Billy. But instead, they were snarling at each other
and making everyone miserable, especially Billy. Like Aisha, Trini had
been heartened by the positive changes in her friend. Billy looked so much
better, she almost thought it had been a mistake to have come up with everyone.
Billy saw Trini just looking at him and blushed. He leaned over the fireplace
and started to stoke the fire, hoping the flames would cover his embarrassment.
When Trini wandered back into the kitchen to help with the after dinner
cleanup, he let out a deep sigh.
"You okay Billy?" He started slightly as Tommy clapped him on
the back.
"Jeez Tommy...." Jason took a seat on the old lumpy couch. "You
just about whacked him into the fire."
"I did not!" Tommy stalked over to a chair. Jason simply rolled
his eyes. Billy felt his anger slowly rise and forced it back down. Somehow,
he knew that he had the answer to why Tommy and jason were so angry but
that was a memory that still eluded him. As he threw another log on the
fire, the lights flickered and went out. A crack of thunder rolled over
the cabin, rattling the windows.
"We have candles over in here." Rocky came out with a few small
candles and matches. Adam took them and lit them. He handed a lit candle
to Billy with a shy smile. "Careful."
Billy smiled. "No problem." He took the candle and started to
move towards the couch. His feet caught on the latch rug and he spilled
to the floor, the candle hitting the rug dangerously close to his head
and catching the rug on fire.
"Adam!" Tommy jumped to his feet. He shoved Adam aside and stomped
on the flames. Adam fell over on Billy, jabbing him painfully in the back.
"Ow!" Billy winced. He was really more startled than hurt.
"You idiot!" Jason whipped Adam off of Billy. "Look what
you did!"
As Billy slowly stood, something started to resonate in his head. He'd
heard it before.... Suddenly he realized that Jason and Tommy were still
at it.
"It was an accident!" Tommy gave Jason a shove.
"Jerk!" Jason shoved back. "You never take responsibility!
It's your fault!"
Billy felt the anger he'd been storing away rise up again. His hands clenched
around the fire poker as he tried desperately to get control. Suddenly
something Rocky said to him came back... 'You have a right to get angry,
you know.' That did it. He gripped the poker and slammed it into the fire
place. "SHUT UP!"
Tommy and Jason turned to stare at him. The others all looked up, startled
and concerned. Billy didn't care. "You make me sick! All of you!"
He smacked the poker into the fireplace again. "You're arguing about
whose fault it is... well, let me tell you. You're all to blame! I spent
months being beaten and starved! While you all were nice and safe, I was
being tortured, experimented on, and damn near raped! And all you people
can do is argue about who should get the blame! Well it's your fault!"
Billy pointed the poker at Tommy. "Dammit, you had months to figure
it out and you didn't." He swung around to Jason. "You talked
to the clone on the phone. You could have noticed! Do you understand how
it makes me feel? I can be replaced and you never noticed!" Billy
turned to Adam, about to shout some more but he saw suddenly that Adam
was crying. Sobbing actually....
He threw the poker into the fireplace and stomped to the door. Trini reached
out but he brushed her off. "You're not my mother!" He stepped
out onto the porch and broke into a run.
The rangers were shocked. No one spoke for a long moment and the only sound
in the cabin was the pounding rain and Adam's crying. Then, Jason sat down
heavily, his feud with Tommy forgotten. "Raped... experimented on...
oh god...." Jason cradled his head in his arms.
"Why didn't... why didn't he say something?" Tommy asked softly.
"What was he supposed to say?" Kat had been silent all day, hoping
against all odds that there would not be such an ugly scene. She had seen
it building all day. "And when? We've all just danced around this...
it's like Billy is just supposed to forget what happened and just be 'okay'
with everything. Well, he's not... he can't just brush it off. And he can't
play referee to your little blame fest."
Both Jason and Tommy nodded, seeing for the first time how badly they had
been acting. They both hung their heads.
"Um... it's raining pretty hard out." Rocky was startled by the
sound of his own voice. "And cold..."
"He shouldn't be outside." Adam said suddenly. He stepped over
towards the window and a flash of lightening danced across his reflection.
"We shouldn't let him wander around in a storm like that..."
* * *
Billy jogged through the sodden forest, barely registering the storm raging
around. What was I thinking? he asked himself as he pumped his legs
up a small hill. Oh god, Jason and Tommy are probably going at each
other with knives or something, and everyone... everyone knows. When I
go back, they're going want to know.... He reached the top of the hill
and stomped for a moment. The wind whipped around him and he could feel
the rain splattering down on his head.
Maybe I won't go back, he thought suddenly, but he knew he was just
putting off the inevitable. It felt good though to be alone and running....
he felt not exactly refreshed but better. He trotted down the hill, not
wanting to go back but realizing that he had probably scared the hell out
of everyone.
The path was sloppy with mud. Before he could really register it, he had
fallen and sliding down the slope. He reached out wildly and latched onto
a tree root to stop his fall.
"Whoa..." he sat up and put a hand to his forehead. A headache
was coming on. He suddenly realized where he was. Near the cabin, up on
a ridge of cliffs. His feet... his feet were dangling over the edge. If
I'd missed that branch, he thought, I'd be dead. I would have fallen
to the bottom... close to 100ft. He took a deep breath and tried to
will the shock away. It wouldn't go, and his headache grew worse. Falling...
* * *
"Billy, I've got you!" Trini, with Jason and Tommy's help, pulled
Billy over the edge and back onto the hospital's roof. He was shaking....
vibrating almost and he couldn't make it stop. It was like he was in fast
forward while everyone else was moving in slow motion.
"Trini? And... Jason..." He didn't really understand... He'd
seen Trini earlier but he knew that was wrong. They should be in Switzerland.
Not that it mattered. It suddenly struck home to him... he had escaped.
He was safe. The hyper state of awareness that he had to live in to survive
in the castle suddenly blacked out. It didn't matter anymore... where he
was, who was around him. He was safe with his friends. Trini gently steered
him away from the edge. He shook his head, feeling the trembling envelope
him and the only thing that kept him from collapsing was the supporting
arm that Trini had wrapped around him. He saw Kat and Rocky lean over the
building edge. What? he thought to himself, what are they looking
at... Dizziness enveloped him. "I don't... feel real good..."
Jason took a hold of him and steered him over to a knobby air conditioning
unit. "Just... sit down, okay Billy?" He turned around, his hands
still on Billy's shoulders, "Rocky.... maybe you should go find um...
some help." Billy saw Rocky nod and speed off towards the stairs.
He looked up at Jason, and felt what was left of his reasoning fall away.
His vision was fuzzy and a bluish-red aura surrounded Jason. Jason looked
down at him and he could see tears welling up in his friends eyes. Why
is Jason upset? he wondered, I don't understand....
Jason's eyes hardened suddenly. He let go of Billy and stomped over
to Tommy. Tommy was holding his shirt over the bleeding cut on his chest.
Jason towered over him and Billy dimly realized that Jason was somewhere
between being enraged and bursting into tears. Jason lifted Tommy up and
shook him. "You idiot! How could you let this happen?" He yanked
Tommy to his feet. "Look at him! God dammit!" He suddenly started
shaking Tommy and Tommy wasn't resisting. Billy lost interest.
He stood up. Where did the clone go? His vision was blurry and fuzzy
even when he was physically well and the bright lights coming from the
street were dazzling him. He tottered over to the edge of the building
and kneeled down. No luck... he could see the street as a white blur of
light but nothing in detail. Suddenly, he was smacked down and he felt
a sudden twinge of fear. He rolled away, and suddenly realized he'd rolled
his upper body off the building. A pair of strong hands grabbed him and
pulled him up.
It was Kat. She helped him turn over and sit up. "You okay?"
He nodded, not quite understanding what hit him.
Tommy was also getting up off the rough asphalt. He shook himself and grabbed
Billy by the shoulder. "Okay, man?"
"Uh..." Billy started shaking. Tommy took that in with a glance
and turned on Jason.
"He nearly fell, Jason! Damn you!" He dove on Jason and in seconds
they were fighting. Really fighting... Billy once wondered what a real
drag-out knock-down fight between his martial artist friends would really
look like. He had his answer. It was a swirling mass of violence that culminated
with Tommy splitting Jason's lip with a high arcing blow. Jason's blood
splattered onto Billy, Kat and Trini's faces. Billy wiped his face with
a shaking hand and stared at the blood in a shocked, horrified way. The
shaking enveloped him and his vision clouded into a bluish black haze and
faded to black.
* * *
Black mud was squishing underneath him as he tried to scramble up the steep
slope. His hands were shaking but he managed to curl his arm around the
nearest tree root. I won't be able to get up the slope until the rain
slacks off, its too slippery, but at least I won't slide off. The headache
thumped on him and he cursed himself. You can't afford this, he
told himself. You could fall and die... you will not have a seizure.
Still, his vision took on the familiar tinge and he tried to brace himself.
"Hey! Help!" he called, hoping that someone, anyone would hear
him. Then, the blue engulfed him.
* * *
Jason, Tommy and Adam ran through the forest, their nerves fried by the
constant lightening and wind.
"This storm is bad!" Tommy's voice was barely audible over the
thunder. "We gotta find him!"
"I know!" Jason shrieked back. "Where the hell did he go?"
The wind whipped around him and he trained his ears to listen. On the trailing
edge of the howling maelstrom, he heard... something. "Guys... this
way!"
"What? Did you hear something?" shouted Tommy. They ran up tot
he top of a small hill.
"Maybe." Jason looked around. They were near the cliffs. "
Let's look around! "
They fanned out. Tommy was beginning to think Jason had simply had a bad
hunch when he spied a slick trail of mud on one of the foot paths. Stepping
nimbly, he walked down the steep grade. Then, he spotted a swatch of blue
cloth. "Guys... over here!" As an after thought he added. "Be
careful!"
From where he stood, he could just see that Billy was inches away from
the edge of the cliff. Tommy couldn't tell if he was conscious or not,
but he could see a slight twitch running through Billy's body like a wave.
Jason and Adam slipped and slid down to his position.
"Oh geez..." Jason said through rushed breaths. "Adam...
go get the others... we might need them. Adam nodded and ran off. Jason
looked over the situation. "Billy! Billy? "
"He's either unconscious or just... out." Tommy said. "He's
shaking..."
"A seizure."
"Yeah... man... we gotta get him away from the edge. If he's not aware,
he could fall off..." Tommy didn't like it. The storm was raging...
the footing was steep and slippery.
"We can do it." Jason pointed to a tree that was just out of
arm's reach of Billy. He stepped down to it carefully and tested a limb.
It held and he wrapped his arm around it. "I'll hold the tree, and
onto you..."
"and I pull Billy up." Tommy finished. He clenched his hand around
Jason's, a gesture so familiar from before that they both felt a shiver
of sudden frission. A feeling of rightness enveloped them, and they both
realized how lonely they had been. Instead of helping each other, they
had pushed each other away until it was almost too late. He smiled at Jason,
and wished he could take back all the weeks of anger.
"Let's do it." Jason said, feeling the same rush of friendship
and regret. He gripped Tommy's hand like a vice. "Don't let go..."
Tommy inched down to Billy. He noted that Billy did seem unconscious but
started talking anyhow. "Billy? Look man... I'm just gonna grab your
shirt and pull you away from this cliff..." He reached out and took
hold of the shirt. With one quick heave he pulled Billy up to where both
Jason and he could grab a hold of him. Tommy was worried though. Billy
was dead weight. Tommy and Jason carried him up to the top of the hill
and set him down. Aside from being coated with mud and covered with scratches,
Billy seemed all right, if unconscious. Jason patted him a little, hoping
to maybe get him awake at least. It worked.
"Mmmmm..." Billy blinked and then closed his eyes again. So
tired, he thought dimly.
"No... don't go to sleep." Jason felt a sharp edge of fear. He
shook Billy again. "Come on..."
"Yeah man...." Tommy joined in. To Jason he added, "let's
get him up..." They pulled Billy upright. He seemed, to both of them,
not aware, just a shell that happened to blink every once in a while. They
both held on and half carried half dragged him through the woods. Slowly,
Billy came out his funk, enough to walk without much guidance. He shook
off his friends hands as they neared the cabin and stopped walking for
a moment.
"Billy?" Tommy asked. Billy's eyes had a glazed over look...
a look that told Tommy that it was very unlikely that Billy would recall
the rainsoaked walk at all. "You okay?"
"Yes..." Billy blinked rapidly. "Are you guys okay?"
It was a simple question, but both Jason and Tommy knew that the question
Billy was really asking went a lot deeper than how they were feeling. The
two recent enemies looked at each other and grinned. "Yeah Billy,"
Jason said with a short laugh. "We're okay."
* * *
"I think we should call a doctor."
"The phones are out. Besides... the road is still flooded. The guy
at the roadblock said if we could transport him down, they might be able
to get him to the hospital..."
"Well... if he doesn't wake up soon... we might have to do that."
Billy groaned. He tossed off the hand made quilt that someone had thrown
on top of him, and sat up. He ached all over and it was readily apparent
that he was turning into a giant bruise. Dark streaks of abraised skin
and swelled bruises were all over him. While he was in a fresh t-shirt
and sweatpants, the clothes he had been wearing the night were in a sad
state of filthy repair. Vaguely, he realized that Tommy and Jason had gotten
him cleaned up and changed the night before. He nudged the mud encrusted
clothes and was suddenly glad his friends hadn't just thrown him into bed.
His stomach was growling in a boisterous manner. Food, he thought, that
would truly hit the spot.
He stepped out into the large living room, feeling very self conscious.
He had blasted his friends, he remembered that, and then he recalled nearly
falling off a cliff. After that... he had nothing but vague impressions.
He thought Tommy and Jason had been almost civil to each other,
but he wasn't sure. Just like he thought it was Jason and Tommy
having the rational discussion on whether to take him to a hospital.
"Billy?" Zack came up behind him and pushed a cup of cocoa into
his hands. "Drink that... have a seat. You scared the hell out of
us." Zack's voice was soft and controlled.
Billy took the cocoa and looked around. In fact, all of the rangers were
littered about in various states of disarray. With the exception of Aisha,
who Billy realized simply could not have gone chasing after him, they all
looked damp and tired, as if they had spent the night looking around the
woods and had simply fallen asleep where they dropped. They must've
been worried, he thought suddenly. It was a realization that made him
feel bad on one hand and on the other hand, he felt a sudden warm glow
of affection for his friends. He took a seat on one of the puffy overstuffed
couches. Tommy and Jason, who had been standing by the front windows, came
over and hovered around him with concern.
"Hey Billy..." Tommy said suddenly. "About last night..."
"I'm fine." He said it with conviction. He'd said it before,
to the doctors, to his father, to his friends and it always felt like a
lie. For some reason though, this time it felt like the truth. "Is
there any food?"
Jason quietly went into the kitchen and came back with a plate of pancakes.
"Rocky is like... cooking anything that stands still." He watched
Billy wolf down the pancakes in silence. "Um...."
"Billy," Tommy picked it up, "We were thinking... are you
okay? I mean, do you need a doctor? Cause the roads..."
"Are flooded. I heard." Billy smiled. "No, I'm okay... just
really tired, and hungry." He paused, not quite sure how to continue.
"I'm sorry I lost my temper last night... no, I'm not, actually. I
am sorry I ran out of here. I could've been killed and you guys
could've gotten hurt too."
"It's okay." Jason said softly. "We haven't exactly been
great about this."
"Yeah, man." Tommy added. "But we're going to try a little
harder from now on."
Billy hesitated. "Guys... this has to work, okay? Because I can't
do this again. I'm having... enough problems coping that I can't deal with
yours too." He blushed suddenly."I need your help with this...
I'm... I'm tired of being alone against this."
"Yeah..." both Tommy and Jason nodded. Then Tommy added, "I
think we kinda forgot that you... were going through some stuff that made
our problems kinda petty."
"That's not... how I meant what I said." Billy barely remembered
what he said... just that he had shouted and told them off.
Jason shook his head in disagreement. "Things are going to change.
"
* * *
Tommy and Jason were good to their word. Things did change, starting first
with their attitudes. Rather than sniping at each other, they embarked
on a mission to make Billy "ranger fit" since Jason couldn't
stay past the summer and no one wanted a replacement. Billy hadn't been
enthralled with two personal trainers but it was definitely better than
the alternative. And better still, it worked. Morning jogs, a painful chore
at first that Jason insisted on every day, slowly but surely increased
his stamina. Tommy took over in the afternoon, with weightlifting and martial
arts lessons. At first, it was a grueling ordeal and at times the only
thing that kept him going was the gentle support of his friends.
The summer ended. Jason, Trini and Zack returned to Switzerland. Zordon
deemed Billy to be fit for battle and the blue power coin was returned.
Zordon had thought that would be that but after the brief ceremony, Billy
lingered, something obviously bothering him.
"Yes, Billy?" Zordon asked.
"Something's been bothering me...." Billy wasn't quite sure how
to broach the topic. He leaned up against one of the computer consoles
and crossed his arms. "The night that... Kat rescued me... We were
up on the roof of the hospital. Kat and Rocky were looking over the ledge...
and they said they didn't see a body.... Zordon, is it possible that the
clone survived?"
Zordon hesitated, but then relented. "Yes, it is possible. I was unable
to track the clone but there is no evidence to indicate that he is dead."
Zordon's face grew grim. "I fear that he has more than enough knowledge
of my methods to make tracking him impossible."
"I could find him..." Billy said slowly. "We need to have
this resolved." He hesitated. "I need to have this resolved too."
"Billy.... what will you do if you find him?" Zordon's booming
voice rang with concern.
"Zordon.... I can't keep my side of the bargain if I don't know where
he is. And I certainly can't make sure he's keeping his end of the deal
if I have no idea where he is." Billy's voice was tight with emotion.
"I need to do this."
Zordon sighed. He had no doubt that the Blue Ranger was correct. He just
hoped that further contact with the clone would not be as disastrous as
all of his senses told him it would be.